Episode 11

[Eddie McGee]

THE SHOWMANCE
Arranged Marriage

Sarah
: Eddie :-(
: why did you lie?

Eddie
: I didn't have time to explain

Sarah
: there was no point

Eddie
: so I didn't bother because I knew you'd try to convince me out of it
: I knew you were with Will

Sarah
: they will never take you to f2

Eddie
: and I needed to break up a pair
: um no they won't

Sarah
: that was so dumb

Eddie
: you will
: and I'll take you
: but you wouldn't have taken me with Will in the game
: and now you can

Sarah
: it's okay i suspected you would do this
: just like i knew you threw the hoh to lydia last week

Eddie
: I didn't
: I sucked at that comp

Sarah
: you may have gotten rid of will - but they will win this next one
too
: will could have helped us
: now one of us is leaving next time
: and they are probably f2
: i bet

Eddie
: no we win
: we break them up

Sarah
: you were lying to me about wanting to keep renny
: at least you could have told me after you won veto what you were doing

Eddie
: I wasn't lying
: I was thinking of keeping him
: and voting out Will at that point

Sarah
: okay well I am a pretty good judge of character - and have been getting vibes from you - I knew you weren't being honest with me

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Eddie
: are we still good?
: I knew you'd be pissed
: but I'm banking on you loving me still
: over Roddia
: if I'm wrong my game is fucked
: but have no doubt

Sarah
: yeah

Eddie
: you are my f2

Sarah
: I'd kind of just like to fuck up your game to be honest
: maybe you should take them to f2
: since you love them so much you want to keep them around

Eddie
: :-(
: so I take it we're not cool?
: ok look come on Sarah
: WILL HAD A PANDORA POWER
: that he didn't tell me about for a long ass time
: you wouldn't tell me what it is

Sarah
: so what?

Eddie
: If people give a shit about someone over another person

Sarah
: not if you promise not to tell

Eddie
: you clearly cared more about Will's privacy
: than our f2
: which meant you had an f2
: which means you were a bigger threat than Roddia
: look
: if I took out Lydia
: I'd have HAD to have f2 with Roddy
: to go up against you and Will
: and I'd rather work with you than Roddy

Sarah
: yeah because will and i have been winning so much

Eddie
: um
: MORE THAN THEM
: and he's done better at all the comps

Sarah
: I just feel shitty that Will could have tried for this but he believed you would vote her out

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Sarah
: sorry
: Okay Eddie
: I'm just angry
: I will get over it
: it's not like I didn't fuck people over

Eddie
: exactly
: me and you are like the same

Sarah
: I realize I have no choice but to work with you
: even if i don't want to
: but I want a clean slate now


Sarah
: I you to be completely honest with me now
: and I will be with you
: I mean it
: deal?
: are you going to talk to me?

Eddie
: yeah deal

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Sarah
: so you have been telling them what I say?
: Like I understand why you wanted Renny out and why you wanted Will out
: but tell me what the point is of telling them what I say?
: about them?
: i just want to understand?

Eddie
: um what?

Sarah
: Lydia (9:24:51 PM): ok, I guess I can take a "shit" without asking Roddy's permission. - its really fine, im over it, i was angry, but i have moved on, i just wanted to clear the air, im not attacking you or anything.
: You are the only person I said that to
: just tell me what the point was

Eddie
: keeping me safe...

Sarah
: how?

Eddie
: :-\

Sarah
: explain it

Eddie
: by throwing everyone under the bus

Sarah
: ah

Eddie
: it's my default

Sarah
: well not surprised

Eddie
: you shouldn't be

Sarah
: that's what you do

Eddie
: it says Sinner under my name

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Sarah
: even if we don't want to
: I'm not saying i don't
: i'm just saying
: we are kind of stuck
: but honestly
: Will would have helped you better than me probably
: i think we're fucked
: Eddie
: why do you care what I think of you as a person?
: do you really think i'm a douche?

Eddie
: noooo
: as a person?
: no
: but you played dirty like me
: and honestly
: I respect you for it
: I like that kind of gameplay

Sarah
: yeah i did play dirty
: i don't care

Eddie
: and that's why we deserve to be final 2
: and they deserve to hold hands in the jury

Sarah
: then we need to win these challenges
: we need HOH

Eddie
: yes
: and veto

Sarah
: and veto

Eddie
: everything

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Eddie
: I couldn't do that to you
: like you're the only person I think

Sarah
: i'm the most hated person here lol

Eddie
: who I'd be sad to see go

Sarah
: you are stupid not to want me in the f2 with you

Eddie
: no not because of that

Sarah
: but i'm just saying

Eddie
: yeah
: but that's one thing
: but there's more to it

Sarah
: ok

Eddie
: I think even if I'd lose to you
: I wouldn't be able to vote you out

Sarah
: ?
: what?
: oh stop
: lol
: now THAT'S a little too much BS :-P

Eddie
: ok I'd vote you out if I had to

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Eddie
: i don't care who the jury loves or hates

Sarah
: LOL

Eddie
: because I know who I'm taking
: lol
: you
: and they can love or hate any of us
: but it doesn't change my actions

Sarah
: I don't need to be whitewashed lol
: I know you'll take me
: I'll take you
: it's kind of a no brainer
: you took away everyone I loved :-(

Eddie
: I TOLD YOU I DONT DEAL WITH EXS

Sarah
: :-(

Eddie
: I thought you loved me...
: but all along
: you wanted me to get 4th
: :-(
: and I killed it
: now I might have to be in f2
: I'm getting teary

Sarah
: stop :-P
: I did get close to you - and wanted you here
: I stabbed Nathan in the back not just for Will
: but for you too
: i wanted to keep both of you
: and i wanted him to go
: and i knew he would go after you both

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Sarah
: so
: it's like you and I
: are f2 as long as your ass is not on the line
: and then you'll do what you need to to throw me under the bus again

Eddie
: I won't

Sarah
: that's not the kind of f2 i had with will

Eddie
: well sorry
: but Will is a Saint
: welcome to hell

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Eddie
: you're really cool

Sarah
: yeah i know i am
: :-)

Eddie
: haha

Sarah
: no i mean joking aside
: I appreciate that
: but I guess I have to take everything you say with a grain of salt you know?
: because I have to hand it to you
: you have worked some people pretty well
: you got your way - for the most part
: and I guess I was one of those people

Eddie
: if I could have told you the truth
: and gotten you to fuck over your own friends
: I would have

Sarah
: lol

Eddie
: but since that wasn't possible
: lol

Sarah
: I wouldn't have

Eddie
: exactly

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Then Sarah and I talked about various game shit. I revealed that I wanted to split her threesome for a long time and also that Alex was the one who gave me insight that Renny had the coup d'etat. Sarah also told me a bunch of shit that doesn't really change anything about how Will and her were running operations. She told me excitedly how her alliance got all the Pandora Powers and I wanted to excitedly tell her how my alliance got hers to waste them...but I stopped myself.

After...well...you know how it goes...I mean I don't feel its any of your business but...

WE FUCKED. A LOT.



...


OK no we didn't. She said she couldn't do it after what I did to Will. "She wasn't in the mood." Whatever the fuck that means. Women apparently have moods for fucking or something. For me its just a state of existence. She'll work with me because she has to...but sexy time is over...we've reached that part of our arranged marriage.

But don't start reading into things. Would a Sinner give a shit about the sacredness of marriage? GO HELL'S ANGELS!

[Eddie McGee]

FINAL FOUR

Play time is over, time to get serious again. My ass will always be on the line from now on and I need to do my best to win these competitions.

This is the final four I've asked for, if it doesn't work for me it's my own damn fault.

Eddie

I got only one doomsday scenario and that's Sarah winning HOH with a combo of Lydia winning veto...if I can avoid that I'll be in final 3. That's not bad odds if you think about it. Viewers at home, you can rest easy you'll probably see my hot bud on every episode this season.

Lydia

Lydia is the only person left in the game who hasn't promised me an f2. I wonder if I can change that. I'm worried bringing it up could cost me Roddy's f2 if she chooses to share what I did. I really don't want to end up with her having to choose between Roddy and I.

Roddy

Roddy and I brought glory back to the Sinner name. For a while those Saints were making a mockery of us but now we evened it back up, 2 and 2. He only has one end game scenario and that is Lydia winning HOH and Sarah winning Veto. This makes Lydia winning the next HOH dangerous and thus hopefully he'll work closer together with me on it than Lydia. Our best bet is that the girls don't get it.

Sarah

What has this girl done to deserve all the grief I've given her? She was HOH and wanted Alex out and then I go save Alex. She's nice anyhow and votes to keep me over Jun and screws over Nathan the same night. I repay her kindness by sending out her two best friends. I'm an asshole. What is it with me and having dysfunctional strategically abusive relationships with women? Maybe I need to see a shrink about that.

[Eddie McGee]

THE SHOWMANCE
The Breakup

Eddie
: do I sound distant and cold?

Sarah
: i am sorry if I'm annoying you again :-P

Eddie
: I feel like I am

Sarah
: yes

Eddie
: not feeling like that
: but feeling like I present myself like that
: sigh
: *hugs Sarah*
: sorry

Sarah
: lol
: thanks Eddie
: *hugs you back*
: platonically





...


WAIT WHAT?


PLATONICALLY?!


SHE CAN'T DO THIS TO ME. JUST BECAUSE I LIE TO HER MORE TIMES THAN I SPEAK THE TRUTH DOESN'T MEAN THIS RELATIONSHIP CAN'T WORK!


WE HAVE AN F2 DAMN IT!


SHE CAN'T DO THIS TO ME...

THAT WHORE!!



platonic...











*Starts drinking*

















*kicks bed*















*punches wall*

















*starts sobbing*























*tries to rebound with Lydia*






























*fails*































*Grabs rum and downs the bottle*






















*Rips up all the logs I've ever made of our conversations*








































































*cries some more*


































































*calms self*


































































*walks by memory wall*








































*gets enraged by Sarah's memory wall picture*





































































*tries to rip it off the memory wall*





























































but it's glued and shit...














































































*rubs one out*
























































































































































































































*continues plotting Sarah's demise at the hands of Hell's Angels*

[Eddie McGee]

HELL'S ANGELS

Every Dream Eventually Ends

I told Roddy that my best case final 3 was going into it with him and Sarah. Despite this I was going to fight my ass off for HOH so that my best case scenario does not happen. And fight my ass off I did. I lost to Sarah fair and square...full effort given.

I've always been about the bottom line except when it comes to these two. I didn't think it was possible for me to be truly loyal to someone in this game outside my own self interest. When other peoples made emotional choices, I looked at them like idiot saps.

Then I became the idiot sap.

Hell's Angels is the best alliance to play Big Brother Warzone and I'm proud to be a part of it.


Now I'm going to have to win veto and vote a Hell's Angel out.

It sucks, but it was coming...if not this round then the next.



The party is coming to an end.

[Eddie McGee]

THE SHOWMANCE

Eddie
: we're going to be the best f2 ever
: we're like the odd couple

Sarah
: how?

Eddie
: we have a love/hate relationship
: that's awesome

Sarah
: lol
: you hate me?

Eddie
: NO!!
: you hate me
: I still love you
: it's going to take months for me to make a full recovery
: but I mean...it's whatever you want I guess

Sarah
: lol
: I don't hate you
: what kind of recovery?

Eddie
: I think us not being together is wrecking me up inside

Sarah
: we are together

Eddie
: not in that way

Sarah
: ?

Eddie
: It'll take a while before I can love again

Sarah
: lol
: ohh

Eddie
: OH MY FUCKING GOD
: you forgot about "us" within like a day
: "oh yeah...that"
: *goes to drink*

Sarah
: lol
: I'm sorry Eddie :-( it just wasn't meant to be

[Eddie McGee]

Sarah is Annoying the Fuck Out of Me

So ever since Will left, Sarah and I have been getting into little tiffs from time to time. She joked at one point that I probably have a post in my DR about how she's annoying as hell. Well I didn't but that's not a bad idea.

Here's Sarah being annoying as all fuck:


Sarah
: I know - I'm glad I'm HOH lol
: hey but if you lose at least there'll be one more person on the jury who doesn't hate me :-P
: lol jk

Eddie
: only if you help me
: if I lose and feel unloved
: I will pull a bitter vote

Sarah
: uh don't threaten me

Eddie
: BITTER VOTE!!!!!!!!!

Sarah
: whatever
: if that's what you want to do idc

Eddie
: oh
: well then I got nothing on you then
: pls help me because I'm cute

Sarah
: i told you i'd help you

Eddie
: um you didn't specify
: that it'd be
: because I'm cute
: frankly the lack of fawning over me is making my self esteem go down

Sarah
: oh
: sorry

Eddie
: I'm starting to think that I'm only mildly above average
: and not a god

Sarah
: lol

Eddie
: I'm just messing with you
: I know I'm the shit

Sarah
: yeah...

Eddie
: but yeah...2 vs. 2
: I have hope

Sarah
: so what do you mean if you lose and feel unloved?

Eddie
: you do know I was joking right
: and I meant if you didn't help me
: and was targeting me

Sarah
: so like if I don't help you and you leave you're going to be bitter?

Eddie
: yes

Sarah
: ah

Eddie
: but I'm joking because you are helping me so who cares

Sarah
: well what if I wasn't?

Eddie
: then I'd be bitter
: and Roddia wins

Sarah
: I see

Eddie
: you're being weird
: unless you're joking with me
: like I make a joke
: and you go analyze it
: step by step

Sarah
: well I don't like ultimatums so I'm trying to figure out if there's some truth inside that joke
: ...

Eddie
: are you serious?

Sarah
: I offered to help you - I don't have to

Eddie
: you feel threatened?
: no you don't have to
: you can lose too

Sarah
: idk

Eddie
: and come in 3rd
: and then we can debate Roddy vs. Lydia

Sarah
: oh so if i don't help you i'll be third?

Eddie
: probably

Sarah
: i see

Eddie
: you think Roddy or Lydia will pick you

Sarah
: what makes you think they will do the picking?

Eddie
: 66.66%

Sarah
: right

Eddie
: statistically speaking

Sarah
: either way - I'm kind of stubborn in case you haven't noticed
: and I really don't like to be told that if I don't help you you'll either vote bitterly or I'll lose or w/e - because I was going to help you

Eddie
: idk what that means
: you were going to?
: I was joking with you

Sarah
: was?
: or are?

Eddie
: WAS BECAUSE I MADE THE JOKE IN THE PAST
: presently
: I'm discussing said joke with you
: sigh
: Sarah stop being all weird
: you were not threatened

Sarah
: stop giving me ultimatums

Eddie
: go up and read for my tone
: you'll see
: you have no ultimatums
: I expect you to help me as my friend

Sarah
: lol

Eddie
: I'll vote for you to win
: probably regardless

Sarah
: actually
: I think you should vote for who played best - as I think everyone should
: as I would if I was on the jury
: or if I am
: but I just don't like when people say if you vote me out i'm not voting you etc
: or whatever they use as leverage

Eddie
: thanks for giving me juror lessons, I hope neither of us have to exercise it

Sarah
: lmao
: you're welcome

Eddie
: there's no leverage
: you can do whatever you want

Sarah
: i didn't mean that to you
: just talking
: I kind of thought you were kidding, but you've really played this game hardcore so I guess I am not sure


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OK so basically here is my assessment on Sarah. Sarah is cool until she can't delude herself into thinking that everything is going great. When she thought her and her best buddy Will were the hottest things this game has ever seen she was quite charming. When she has to be on the defensive, she has no game. She just yells and flips a shit. Maybe I should be giving Sarah some slack here. It's not often she has to fend for herself without an entourage of "go way back" allies.

In any case she's annoying the fuck out of me.

Sarah, you're playing for second. You keep saying you know that but your piss fits convey to me that you don't fully grasp that yet.


Anyway hopefully despite wasting my time being a bitch, Sarah will help me win the veto.

[Eddie McGee]

The Coming Death of Strategy

Let's start with the fact that I WON THE POWER OF VETO. Not alone though, Sarah helped a lot. I was counting on Roddy helping me as well but when I asked him for links he said he doesn't have them and he posted the pics as layers in photoshop and blah de blah. I wonder if it's true. I really want to believe Roddy was going to pick me over Lydia. He did want to win because he's self conscious about his winning record this season. However while my gut says he would have kept me...I got no proof of that this challenge.

I came in expecting to throw to Roddy because I felt that Roddy evicting Lydia would have been epic. However the combination of Roddy and Lydia both being on the board as invisible together and Roddy's lack of help...made me paranoid an iota enough to win this damn competition and not throw like usual.

ANYWAY, nothing has changed in terms of what I'm going to do.

1) I will evict Lydia
2) I will fight to win final HOH
3) Hopefully Sarah will go home


DILEMMA OF THE WEEK: Lydia, who knows she is leaving wants a good goodbye speech. A good one would mean pissing off Sarah, possibly to the point of fucking shit up and freaking her out to try harder at HOH. Do I honor Lydia's wishes? To what extent? What do I do with Sarah strategically? I know who to evict but not with what speech.

[Eddie McGee]

Goodbye Message-- Lydia


OK I just gave you a big long goodbye publicly. What else can I say? Thanks for always being true with me. Thanks for always having my back. Thanks for being you. I'll miss you Lyd.