Episode 1 - I'm a Saint LOL

[Jessica Hughbanks]

Well lookie here I'm a saint with.. David, Jason, Lydia, Nathan, Renny, Sarah and Will. My first thought was YAY and CRAP all mixed into one. Because Renny and Sarah hate me. So I didn't want either of them to win, but then at the same time I think Will is boring so I didn't really want him to win either. This twist is crazy but I love it, like bring on the drama bitches, I can take it! I'll act like I can't but I so can. I'm ready for this. I don't even care anymore muahaha!

Well the challenge begins and Lydia helps me with it. We work on it together. Little did I know there was a challenge chat going on.. that I was excluded from.. like WTF I don't even know what is wrong with people but oh well not that big of a deal right?

Anyway Natalie decides to give Will the puzzle and tells him to nominate me. UM THANKS A LOT NATALIE, because of that you are number one on my list. I can't believe your dumbass decided to make an alliance with me and then break it on the same day yet again. At least I know.. although I always knew but so stupid. She wasn't even my main target.. close to it but yeah.

So Will wins the challenge.. here is my chat with him.

SunSet141k: hey
JDeanUT: hiya!
JDeanUT: crazy twist
JDeanUT: I had to read it like 5 times
SunSet141k: lmao
SunSet141k: I know what you mean
SunSet141k (7:08:13 PM): so whatcha up to?
JDeanUT (7:08:29 PM): just made dinner. going to watch survivor
SunSet141k (7:12:58 PM): sweet
SunSet141k (7:37:53 PM): congrats
JDeanUT (7:39:16 PM): thanks
SunSet141k (7:40:42 PM): any idea what you are gonna do?
JDeanUT (7:40:57 PM): yeah, kinda
SunSet141k (7:41:18 PM): is one of the people me?
SunSet141k (7:42:58 PM): it's okay if it is, I just know that theres a lot of people after me in this game.. and from the rumors I've heard.. natalie gave you the puzzle.. and I know that natalie hates me and it makes it look like you are alligned with natalie. I just want a fair chance is all.
JDeanUT (7:44:00 PM): I just have to think about it. I really didn't want to be HOH this week
SunSet141k (7:44:42 PM): well I'm open for any deals
JDeanUT (7:46:02 PM): I am going to base it only on who helped me with the challenge
JDeanUT (7:46:14 PM): cause I couldn't have done it without help
SunSet141k (7:46:26 PM): lol i sucked at that challenge
JDeanUT (7:46:48 PM): haha me too
SunSet141k (7:47:45 PM): but just know I'm not after you at all. So to come after me because Natalie said so.. I don't think is in your best interest. I think you need to do what is best for you, not natalie.
JDeanUT (7:48:41 PM): haha I would never do anything cause natalie said so
JDeanUT (7:48:50 PM): but if you want me to be honest
SunSet141k (7:49:03 PM): lol I just know when she was in my season during the first challenge she would pick people and make them pick who she wanted to save.. but she did it to everyone it was really annoying.
JDeanUT (7:49:13 PM): there were 5 people on our team in a chat helping each other with the challenge, and you weren't one of them
SunSet141k (7:49:20 PM): cuz I wasn't invited
SunSet141k (7:49:25 PM): and you know why?
JDeanUT (7:49:28 PM): why?
SunSet141k (7:49:29 PM): Because Renny hates me
JDeanUT (7:49:38 PM): renny wasn't there either
SunSet141k (7:49:42 PM): oh really?
SunSet141k (7:49:44 PM): that's weird
JDeanUT (7:49:45 PM): yep
SunSet141k (7:49:48 PM): well I don't know why i wasn't invited
SunSet141k (7:49:53 PM): was sarah there?
JDeanUT (7:49:55 PM): yeah
SunSet141k (7:50:00 PM): that's probably why
SunSet141k (7:50:06 PM): lol sorry I had to find someone that hated me that was there
JDeanUT (7:50:19 PM): and before we got results we all decided that if one of us won we would keep the others safe
JDeanUT (7:50:39 PM): so I basically have three people to choose from
SunSet141k (7:51:50 PM): either I wasn't there cuz nobody wanted to invite me OR because it didn't tell me I got an invite. I have no idea but I was on
SunSet141k (7:52:14 PM): at least I completed the challenge
SunSet141k (7:52:20 PM): renny didn't even post in the last box
SunSet141k (7:52:47 PM): dave wasn't on for the challenge
SunSet141k (7:55:09 PM): I can't help that I didn't get an invite
SunSet141k (7:55:13 PM): that's not my fault
SunSet141k (7:55:16 PM): I can't invite myself to a chat lol
JDeanUT (7:56:31 PM): haha I know, but it's just a promise I made and I haven't decided but it's between the three of you I'm afraid
SunSet141k (7:57:03 PM): that's fine, but I was never after you.
SunSet141k (7:57:06 PM): just know that
JDeanUT (8:00:55 PM): I know. just know that you're not my target. no matter who goes up
SunSet141k (8:01:03 PM): and I was there for the challenge.. just not in the chat lol
SunSet141k (8:01:05 PM): because nobody told me
SunSet141k (8:01:22 PM): but yet people in the chat were telling me answers
SunSet141k (8:01:26 PM): so it's messed up
JDeanUT (8:01:44 PM): well why didn't they invite you? that's totally messed
SunSet141k (8:02:13 PM): I don't know
SunSet141k (8:02:17 PM): apparently sarah made the chat
JDeanUT (8:02:35 PM): yeah
SunSet141k (8:02:38 PM): and well like I said she doesn't like me.. and secondly apparently she didn't know who was saints and who was sinners
SunSet141k (8:02:52 PM): I think she purposely didn't invite me lol
JDeanUT (8:03:21 PM): well that would be crappy
JDeanUT (8:03:42 PM): cause we need to work as a team no matter what our feelings are about each other
SunSet141k (8:04:32 PM): Exactly
SunSet141k (8:05:55 PM): oh and now I just heard nat gave you the answer to stop me from winning.
SunSet141k (8:06:02 PM): expecting you to nominate me
JDeanUT (8:07:37 PM): really? is that why?
SunSet141k (8:07:42 PM): yes
JDeanUT (8:08:02 PM): well, maybe I'll just not do what nat wants
JDeanUT (8:08:06 PM): hehe
SunSet141k (8:08:14 PM): I hope you don't <3
SunSet141k (8:09:26 PM): cuz I honestly would not have nominated you.
SunSet141k (8:09:33 PM): I mean I know that could sound like a line
SunSet141k (8:09:41 PM): but I wouldn't have any reason to nominate you
SunSet141k (8:10:17 PM): Like do you really want to listen to a 16 year old?
SunSet141k (8:10:25 PM): or 17 if he is now
SunSet141k (8:10:30 PM): I just know in season 1 he was 15 lol
JDeanUT (8:11:44 PM): haha
JDeanUT (8:11:53 PM): well I don't want to put you up either
SunSet141k (8:12:09 PM): well you don't have to
SunSet141k (8:12:18 PM): what's Nat gonna do to you if you don't?
JDeanUT (8:14:04 PM): I don't care about nat
SunSet141k (8:14:09 PM): lol ok that's good
JDeanUT (8:15:42 PM): but here's what concerns me and I'll be totally honest
JDeanUT (8:15:54 PM): I know there are a lot of alliances in this game
JDeanUT (8:16:08 PM): and I know that I'm not included in any of them
JDeanUT (8:16:28 PM): and from what I hear, you are part of the biggest group in the game
SunSet141k (8:17:30 PM): wtf? it's nice to know I'm apart of an alliance that I don't know about lol
JDeanUT (8:17:53 PM): haha hey I'm just saying what I've heard
JDeanUT (8:18:06 PM): apparently there's a huge group of mixed game people
SunSet141k (8:18:11 PM): oh
SunSet141k (8:18:52 PM): okay there is a huge group of mixed game people BUT I was never told of us all making an alliance
SunSet141k (8:19:09 PM): and that game actually fucked up a lot of my friendships so I doubt anyone would actually agree to that alliance lol
SunSet141k (8:19:12 PM): so someone is making up shit
SunSet141k (8:19:16 PM): because I know I wouldn't agree to that
JDeanUT (8:20:07 PM): well I know you're super tight with ev
JDeanUT (8:20:14 PM): everyone is telling me that
SunSet141k (8:20:33 PM): well everyone knows that
SunSet141k (8:20:42 PM): I'm not going to lie that Ev and I are close.
SunSet141k (8:20:47 PM): but he's not in mixed games
SunSet141k (8:20:49 PM): he's the host
JDeanUT (8:22:46 PM): I know I've played in mixed
SunSet141k (8:22:49 PM): oh really?
SunSet141k (8:22:55 PM): lol sorry I'm so clueless
JDeanUT (8:22:57 PM): yeah
JDeanUT (8:22:57 PM): hehe
SunSet141k (8:23:04 PM): who are you on tib?
JDeanUT (8:23:12 PM): JDUT?
JDeanUT (8:23:14 PM): I think
JDeanUT (8:23:19 PM): I never log on
SunSet141k (8:24:13 PM): oh
SunSet141k (8:24:15 PM): lol
SunSet141k (8:35:21 PM): but just so you know there really isn't a mixed game alliance.
SunSet141k (8:37:07 PM): theres no way it would work
SunSet141k (8:37:11 PM): I was on a tribe with all mixed game people
SunSet141k (8:37:15 PM): they were all shady towards me
SunSet141k (8:37:40 PM): And I'm not the only person that has someone they are close to in this game.
SunSet141k (8:37:47 PM): it's full of people that are close
JDeanUT (8:37:49 PM): oh I know
SunSet141k (8:38:25 PM): who the heck came up with that idea?
JDeanUT (8:38:36 PM): I've heard it from a few people
SunSet141k (8:38:42 PM): they must be speculating
JDeanUT (8:38:45 PM): and you have to admit it is daunting
SunSet141k (8:38:55 PM): well if you have been watching mixed game
JDeanUT (8:39:00 PM): I haven't
SunSet141k (8:39:07 PM): you can see that none of us would want to come together and work together lol
SunSet141k (8:39:16 PM): because of that game I have haters
SunSet141k (8:39:21 PM): people ended friendships with me over that game
SunSet141k (8:39:25 PM): it's ridiculous
JDeanUT (8:49:49 PM): ok well I was being honest with you cause I wanted to trust you but now everyone knows that I think there's a mixed alliance
JDeanUT (8:49:53 PM): so thanks
SunSet141k (8:50:38 PM): Well it took me off guard that's the only reason I brought it up to other people. I didn't think you cared about that.
SunSet141k (8:50:48 PM): I mean it's something you heard
SunSet141k (8:50:55 PM): so it's just a rumor that has continued to go
SunSet141k (8:51:05 PM): I mean you think it makes me feel good to hear that people are making that up in the first place
SunSet141k (8:51:09 PM): I don't know who started it
SunSet141k (8:53:00 PM): So please don't take me repeating that info as you can't trust me. That was just a bizare thing for me to hear that is all.
JDeanUT (8:54:05 PM): well bottom line, I don't want to go back on my word to the people who helped me win
JDeanUT (8:54:18 PM): which means I have 3 options
SunSet141k (8:54:22 PM): I know that
JDeanUT (8:54:36 PM): and of those three, you're one of the 2 that I know the least
SunSet141k (8:54:40 PM): but I also know and have heard from many people that nat is pushing you to nominate me and you realize if you do, everyone is going to know you are with nat.
JDeanUT (8:55:00 PM): well, I'm not
JDeanUT (8:55:30 PM): I know she sent me the answer because she thinks I'm a pushover
SunSet141k (8:56:07 PM): I don't think that you are a pushover
SunSet141k (8:57:01 PM): I have made attempts to speak with you before this conversation
JDeanUT (8:57:33 PM): I know
JDeanUT (8:58:35 PM): but also there are a lot of mixed people and I you must have told sarah I thought that, so it makes me think you are alligned with sarah
JDeanUT (8:58:46 PM): and it would be smart to put her up too
SunSet141k (8:59:08 PM): I did tell sarah cuz I went to her to ask why she never invited me to the chat
SunSet141k (8:59:27 PM): she's like oh it's nothing against you, I just wasn't talking to you that's why I didn't invite you.
SunSet141k (9:00:06 PM): then since I was talking to her
JDeanUT (9:00:14 PM): and if you told sarah, you told nathan
SunSet141k (9:00:16 PM): I'm like apparently theres a rumor that mixed game is in an alliance
SunSet141k (9:00:19 PM): she's like I wasn't invited
SunSet141k (9:00:23 PM): I'm like neither was I
SunSet141k (9:01:21 PM): And you weren't the only one I heard that rumor from
SunSet141k (9:01:27 PM): someone else mentioned Seb is spreading that rumor
SunSet141k (9:01:36 PM): and I'm like yeah I just heard it too
JDeanUT (9:01:44 PM): I've heard it from others
JDeanUT (9:01:49 PM): not seb
JDeanUT (9:02:00 PM): but maybe they heard it from him
SunSet141k (9:02:06 PM): well some people seriously have some issues cuz I would not be apart of that alliance if it existed lol
JDeanUT (9:02:08 PM): I don't know
SunSet141k (9:02:20 PM): like how coudl I be if renny and nat both want me out?
SunSet141k (9:02:31 PM): I've heard they do and are trying to find people that hate me to get me out
SunSet141k (9:02:41 PM): It's all just ridiculous
JDeanUT (9:07:06 PM): ok here's the thing
JDeanUT (9:07:12 PM): I don't want to put you up
JDeanUT (9:07:44 PM): but I don't know what else to do
JDeanUT (9:08:08 PM): I should never have made that deal
JDeanUT (9:08:21 PM): jason kind of forced it
SunSet141k (9:08:40 PM): well who do you want to put up, I swear I won't tell them. You'd find out if I did obviously lol.
SunSet141k (9:09:35 PM): well just cuz jason "forced it" doesn't mean you have to go through with it.
JDeanUT (9:09:38 PM): haha
JDeanUT (9:09:54 PM): but I don't want people to think I'm a big liar, cause I'm really not
SunSet141k (9:10:23 PM): well who do you want to nominate?
JDeanUT (9:10:45 PM): Dave
SunSet141k (9:11:51 PM): okay well do that. I have no problems with that lol he's a huge threat.
JDeanUT (9:12:36 PM): and nat pisses me off
SunSet141k (9:12:56 PM): well nat's main ally is renny.
JDeanUT (9:13:00 PM): I told her I wasn't putting you up
JDeanUT (9:13:09 PM): and that I was putting renny up
JDeanUT (9:13:17 PM): and she was not happy
SunSet141k (9:13:52 PM): well of course renny and nat are close
JDeanUT (9:15:11 PM): but I also don't want renny to leave
JDeanUT (9:15:28 PM): so if I put up dave and renny, could we make sure dave leaves?
SunSet141k (9:15:44 PM): we could try yes
SunSet141k (9:18:28 PM): I'd be down with that.
JDeanUT (9:22:34 PM): well I need to think about it
JDeanUT (9:22:46 PM): people are all telling me different things
SunSet141k (9:22:52 PM): like what?
SunSet141k (9:23:02 PM): That I'll try to get you out?
SunSet141k (9:23:10 PM): that I have too many friends in the game.
JDeanUT (9:23:23 PM): oh yeah
JDeanUT (9:23:35 PM): I've heard from 2 people now that you want me out
SunSet141k (9:23:43 PM): of course they will say that to you lol why would I say I want you out?!
SunSet141k (9:23:47 PM): I have never said that
SunSet141k (9:23:50 PM): I'm not that stupid lol
SunSet141k (9:24:17 PM): Like I said those people are the ones that want me out.. so of course they are going to try to turn you against me.
SunSet141k (9:24:22 PM): Mind you am I trying to turn you against anyone?
SunSet141k (9:25:42 PM): I'm not trying to get you to nominate anyone.. I'm not trying to make you get out who I want out or anything of the sort. I'm not saying so and so is after you.
JDeanUT (9:25:55 PM): I know
SunSet141k (9:26:11 PM): That's a huge thing right there
SunSet141k (9:26:15 PM): I'm not that kind of player
SunSet141k (9:31:21 PM): yes will I'm after you.. when I know like 5 people want me out.. yes will you are my main target
SunSet141k (9:35:28 PM): did you disappear?
SunSet141k (9:37:34 PM): do you want a deal with me? a deal that if you dont nominate me I won't nominate you when/if I win hoh or cast my vote to evict you if/when you go up?
JDeanUT (9:38:26 PM): I can't even think right now
JDeanUT (9:38:27 PM): hehe
SunSet141k (9:39:24 PM): that's not a difficult deal for me to make considering the only person that I'm loyal to right now is Nathan and everyone and their mothers know that lmao.
JDeanUT (9:40:22 PM): yeah but I made a deal earlier and it was stupid, so I can't make any more until tommorow when I'm thinking clearly
SunSet141k (9:40:41 PM): how is this a stupid deal?
JDeanUT (9:41:51 PM): cause I don't want to go back on it, and right now I don't know if you're going up or not
JDeanUT (9:41:58 PM): I'm just being honest
SunSet141k (9:42:45 PM): i just think theres bigger threats to you than me.
JDeanUT (9:43:02 PM): such as?
SunSet141k (9:43:24 PM): those that are trying to use you to do their dirty work.
SunSet141k (9:44:01 PM): they don't have any loyalty to you, which is completely true, like natalie, she has so many people she's trying to boss around, she has those she will be loyal to and the rest she's just using them.
SunSet141k (9:44:06 PM): I mean come on she even tried to make a deal with me
SunSet141k (9:44:10 PM): to not go after me
SunSet141k (9:44:15 PM): I was like whatever
SunSet141k (9:44:19 PM): cuz I know she was talking outta her ass
JDeanUT (9:44:39 PM): haha
JDeanUT (9:45:07 PM): yeah well we all know nat is full of shit, I'm not concerning myself with her
SunSet141k (9:45:38 PM): lol that's good
SunSet141k (9:45:46 PM): that's definately a wise decision


I have no idea if I made any progress with him but I tried my best.. He's really stupid if he does nominate me because he'll piss off a lot of people and doesn't even realize it but I'm not going to tell him that. If he wants to be a target of mine that's fine. I don't care. We'll see if he's smart or stupid after he does his nominations. Like seriously does he want to be Natalie's BITCH!? I know I wouldn't want to be.

Yes I lied to him and if he nominated Dave and Renny and it stayed the same I would not vote out Dave lol, I would vote out Renny and rally for Renny to go because well for my game Renny wants me out!

I still can't believe the rumor about mixed game alliance ROFL. Honestly when he said that I thought he fucking meant the season 1 alliance and I was like OMFG JASON LEAKED IT OUT! I was flipping out but then he says mixed games and I honestly cracked up. Like seriously we all hate each other why the fuck would we work together?! Which reminds me I did finally tell Nathan about the season 1 alliance, I felt I needed to and so now I feel better that he knows but I also know he won't tell anyone about it.

Oh in other news Eddie was told by Dave that Chelsia isn't really down with the season 1 alliance and wants to make a 4 way alliance consisting of Dave/Rache/Chelsia and some unknown person that hasn't been decided yet. Eddie told Dave to say yes to that. DUH never say no to an alliance Dave NEVER! lol

Oh and me and Sarah made nice today..

Jessica: I just wanna know how come I wasn't invited to the chat?
Sarah: I just started inviting people I was talking to and I figured if anyone else was on other people would help invite - why didn't anyone else invite you?
Sarah: It wasn't on purpose
Sarah: I just started looking at my tabs
Jessica: well lydia just tried and I never got it, so maybe others did try lol
Sarah: oh idk
Jessica: it's weird cuz aim does that sometimes
Jessica: doesn't send them
Sarah: but honestly i didn't leave you out on purpose
Jessica: I'm not blaming you, it was jsut weird to hear aout the chat I'm like wtf?
Sarah: and then I saw renny on but I didn't invite her either
Sarah: and no one else was
Sarah: and dave iether
Sarah: so again, lol
Sarah: not on purpose
Jessica: it's okay
Sarah: by the wat
Sarah: way
Sarah: I am not carrying over any baggage from mixed game to this game
Sarah: and I hope you're not either
Jessica: well that's good to hear, I thought you hated me lol
Sarah: I invited you a few min ago
Jessica: and that you were in the rob hating kenya boat
Sarah: did you get that?
Jessica: no
Jessica: what's the chat name I'll invite myself
Sarah: no - I don't take games that personally
Sarah: I have no reason to hate you lol
Sarah: do you hate me?
Sarah: HOH1Saints
Jessica: i don't hate you
Jessica: I just thought you hated me
Jessica: glad we cleared that up
----Mixed game talk-----
Sarah: but I don't hate you
Sarah: and I guess I hope you don't hate me
Jessica: I don't hate you, I just thought you hated me
Jessica: although we could use that to our advantage
Jessica: lol
Sarah: LOL
Sarah: true
Sarah: yeah I promise I don't hate you
Sarah: and I hate when people carry baggage over to other games
Sarah: so I won't do that
Jessica: I hate when people decide that a game will decide friendships
----Mixed game talk----
Jessica: lol at the rumor that mixed games has an alliance ROFL
Sarah: is there?
Jessica: theres that rumor yeah
Sarah: um I wasn't invited to it
Jessica: me either
Sarah: lol
Jessica: Will says to me
Jessica: I'm worried cuz you are apart of the biggest alliance in this game
Jessica: Im' like wtf?
Jessica: what alliance
Jessica: he says the mixed game alliance
Sarah: oh really?
Jessica: I'm like are you fucking kidding me?!
Jessica: theres no way anyone would agree to that
Jessica: we all like hate each other
Jessica: LMAO
Sarah: haha
Jessica: which is true.. that game is insane
Sarah: yeah
Sarah: it's not for me anymore lol
Jessica: well I know
Jessica: geez
Jessica: people assume too much this is pissing me off
Sarah: what?
Sarah: lol I tried to let will know that mg people don't love each other but idk if I was subtle enough lol
Sarah: he isn't saying much to me
Jessica: well don't say anything but now he thinks you and me are alligned
Jessica: cuz I told you
Jessica: like wtf
Jessica: that doesn't mean shit
Sarah: what?
Jessica: I'm really frustrated
Sarah: he said that?
Jessica: Will thinks you and me are alligned now lol
Jessica: but don't say anything
Jessica: I'm trying as hard as I can to fix this lol
Jessica: say you don't like me or something to will lol
Sarah: okay
Jessica: omg I think I may have saved myself
Jessica: lol
Jessica: *crosses fingers*
Sarah: oh yeah?
Jessica: not sure though
Jessica: too many people saying too many things
Jessica: *smacks people* oh that was fun
Sarah: lol
Sarah: I guess the game as begun
Jessica: no kidding
Jessica: I should write a confessional
Jessica: about all this
Jessica: so much to say ROFL
Sarah: lol
Sarah: I know I was actually going to write one
Sarah: and then I saw a survey so I got sidetracked
Jessica: lol

Do I trust Sarah, absolutely not, but it's a plus if she's not after me, it just lowers her on my boot list.. she's no longer number one. I have bigger fish to fry baby.

My alliance with Eddie is working perfectly though.. he gets told all the stuff that people don't want me to know.. so it's like YES YES YES! Dumb bitches.. you are all going down. I hope I'm not nominated but even if I am I think I could pull off not getting voted out.. and maybe even having the veto used on me then what is he gonna do if that happens.. dumbass. Seriously I am so over this, if Will nominates me. He just made me target him. So he better not if he knows what's good for him .

Lydia is yet again amazing... Mental Combination FTW! <3 <3

[Jessica Hughbanks]

Will is nominating me. FUCK HIM.

Eddie just told me. But I mean everyone is going to lie to him and tell him that they are going to vote me out when I know they aren't. Fucking idiot. OMG I'm so mad right now. WILL YOUR ASS IS MINE!! I can't believe this.. fucking asshole.

I guess he asked Eddie and Dave if they would vote me out and they both said yes. Um yeah like my season 1 alliance will vote me out.. like Lydia and Roddy will vote me out.. and like Nathan will vote me out. Okay BRING IT BITCH!

ROFL Renny is yelling at Sheila saying I texted him and said that Sheila is gonna nominate him.. BULL FUCKING SHIT. Like I'd do that.. whatever. I don't even talk to Renny, I just want to kick him right now he's being so stupid.

I can't wait for the veto comp now.. I want to kick some ass or have Sheila win it and take me off!

[Jessica Hughbanks]

Epic moment..

I try to talk to Will again and he signs off so I'm like okay and I go to leave the chatroom and I see him in there so I post in the chatroom..

Jessica: you know Will if you are going to go invisable to hide from me.. the least you could do is leave the chatroom LOL


Then he tries to say he is hiding from everyone it's such bullshit. He's just hiding from me. I know what he's up to. Bastard.

[Jessica Hughbanks]

*rolls eyes at Will's nomination ceremony* He's such an ass. He tells me that he doesn't want Nathan out but then why nominate him you idiot. You think Nathan will trust you after you just nominated him!? Umm no.

But whatever I could care less.. he's such a douchebag anyway. Season 1ers are pissed at you now man.. you wait and see the crap that you just caused . I am going to try my best to win the veto or get Dave to win it and save me and then you can all go fuck yourselves. Ideally I would love to win the veto and have like Rachel win it on the sinners.. I'd use the veto on Nathan and she could use it on me <3 that would be epicness right there bitches hahaha. I doubt that will happen but I can dream right?

Sheila asked who she should nominate.. I said Renny, since Renny is a vote against me. So hopefully that's what she does. I don't want Dave against me because I would like the veto used on me.. not used on Dave lol.


Roddy: hey Jess
Roddy: saw the noms
Jessica: it's okay
Jessica: I'll just win veto
Jessica: and shove it down Will's throat
Roddy: you go girl!!!
Roddy: lol sounds like there was a lot of drama last night
Roddy: with the saints
Jessica: I don't even care I'm perfectly fine right now, I had an amazing day


Roddy <3 <3 <3 I love what I said to him about the veto

[Jessica Hughbanks]

Yay Sheila nominated Renny <3 <3 I'm soooooo happy!!

LOVE HER SPEECH TOO!! IT'S EPIC!!! What will be even more epic is Renny leaving this round!

Time to win some vetoes and make sure Renny is stuck on that block!

[Jessica Hughbanks]

Jason is shady and I don't trust him at all. I ask him if he would use the veto on me if he won it and he says.. depends on who wins it on the sinner side because he likes Nathan too. I'm like WTF are you serious?! We're in a season 1 alliance and you would save Nathan over me? Thanks man, thanks a lot. I'm not going to put up with your bullshit for long here.. if I get the chance your ass is mine. If I save myself and you don't have veto, I'm totally gonna make sure YOU go up beside Renny. Maybe that will teach you a lesson you stupid ass.

Rachel was helping me with the challenge and so was Eddie. Then I was also in a chatroom with Nathan and Sheila, so we all sort of talked about the challenge, more or less just asking each others opinions on what this word was or that.

Jason gave Eddie his answers.. so Eddie gave them to me to compare LOL! I hope that I managed to win this veto but I really feel like I didn't. Which sucks ass.

Lydia was also helping me with the challenge, I think she probably helped me the most because we keep each other sane.. while we go insane ROFL we have too much fun it's hilarious. Like she put it best.. we can't have mental combination without the mental! I even told her about the conversation that I had with Will below. Hehe she loved it.

Now for the best part..

So I was calling Will out on the board to stir up drama.. then I go and have a chat with Will..

Jessica: I'm not actually mad or anything. I just couldn't resist saying that.
Will: haha, it's all good
Will: I'm not going to get offended by anything like that. I've said plenty about you too
Jessica: plus if I stay people would expect me to go after you and I still don't want to. Even if you did nominate me because I was having a bad night.
Jessica: soooo what do ya say?
Jessica: lol
Will: well I called you a bitch
Will: hehe
Jessica: so?
Jessica: lol
Jessica: i've been called worse
Will: hehe
Jessica: well what do you think though.. if I don't leave this round.. we have some secret alliance or something lol
Will: haha, well no one would suspect it, that's for damn sure
Jessica: exactly
Will: all right. then we can just keep up our bitchy comments and know it's all in fun
Will: hehe
Jessica: yep nobody has to know it's not real
Jessica: it's good for episodes
Jessica: lmao
Will: haha that's true
Will: chels loves her drama
Jessica: but I must nap now talk to you later
Will: k laterz


Just covering all my bases would I honor that secret alliance with him, fuck no I don't trust him worth shit. Does he need to know that? NOPE! I just want to make sure he doesn't keep coming after me but obviously if I get the opportunity I WILL get him outta here.

[Jessica Hughbanks]

Fakeness Party of one with the all famous Natalie

Yesterday:
Natalie: hey kenya
Jessica: hi
Natalie: what's up
Jessica: nothin
Natalie: sorry to see you up
Jessica: no you aen't
Jessica: aren't
Jessica: lol
Natalie: actually i am it's just a game, and i know it sucks to go up on the block so i am sorry
Jessica: you told him to nominate me
Jessica: dont' lie
Natalie: why do people think i controlled the nominations? because i didn't.
Jessica: HE TOLD ME YOU GAVE HIM THE LINK SO I WOULDN"T WIN AND ASKED HIM TO NOMINATE ME SO STOP LYING>
Natalie: umm okay kenya you think that
Jessica: and so did everyone else in the game
Jessica: lol
Natalie: so im the reason you're up you think?
Jessica: part of the reason
Jessica: the other is I was rude to will because I got a not very good call from my mom.
Jessica: and I took it out on him
Jessica: sorta
Natalie: well i hope everything is going fine in your real life
Jessica: it will be okay
Natalie: yay i'm glad
Natalie: well i bet you'll win veto tonight
Jessica: maybe
Jessica: we'll see
Natalie: well i hope you're not mad at me because i'm not the reason you're up at all
Jessica: stop targetting me then.
Natalie: how am i targeting you? do you see a key around my neck? nope didn't think so, so i'm not in control
Natalie: Will is NOT my bitch.
Natalie: why did you post that?
Jessica: I'm bored
Natalie: so you post stupid shit when you're bored?
Jessica: no
Jessica: if you don't want me out then this be a good cover
Jessica: haha
Natalie: haha
Natalie: im too stupid also of a player to have people being my bitch <3
Natalie: lol so i dont know why you think i got you up there boo
Natalie: you're gonna have to talk this is why i begin to hate you again
Jessica: I need to sleep
Jessica: so talk to you later
Natalie: bye




Today:
Jessica: hey
Natalie: hi
Jessica: how are you today?
Natalie: good just slowly finish my confessional and doing a project later
Natalie: how about you?
Natalie: i hear you're begging people to save you with the veto
Jessica: and I hear you really want me out
Jessica: I haven't begged anyone.
Natalie: who has told you i really want you out?
Jessica: a lot of people
Natalie: snoopy and jamison probably
Jessica: it's really starting to annoy me
Natalie: who cares? people want you out boohoo
Natalie: people call you a cow, and a whale boohoo
Jessica: actually you'd be surprised at how many people are lying to your face about wanting me out.
Natalie: kenya you're so right <333333
Natalie: i don't give a fuck how many people want you here okay?
Jessica: and I don't give a fuck about you at all. I mean I came to talk and ask why you want me out so bad because it's annoying me.
Natalie: because i hear you're targeting me too so it's time to beat you to the punch.
Natalie: if you don't give a fuck about me then you wouldn't care if i was targeting you. hypocrite much?
Jessica: um for your fucking information I wasn't targetting you at all.
Jessica: Then I hear you want me out, that you wanted will to nominate me
Jessica: so if people told you I wanted you out they lied to you
Jessica: because I didn't to begin with
Jessica: you weren't even top on my list.
Natalie: k well people have been telling me you've been wanting me out so what am i supposed to believe? you never talk to me sooo
Natalie: see how do you expect me to believe you if
Natalie: you don't even respond after you rant
Jessica: well others are talking to me and aim doesn't always say you responded
Jessica: it doesn't just happen with you
Jessica: it happens with a lot people
Jessica: I'll go back to them and be like wtf why haven't they talked to me again and be like oh they did lol
Natalie: oh haha yeah i heard the new AIM sucks.
Natalie: well who has been starting this shit about us then?
Natalie: they obviously want us against each other.
Jessica: i don't know but the same thing happened in another game.. where I was being told someone hated me and they were being told I hated them and neither of us even said that
Jessica: so it's really frustrating when people do that
Natalie: yeah i agree
Natalie: i really didn't tell people i hated you
Jessica: it's easy for people to just make that up too because of our past.
Natalie: exactly so we quickly believe it
Jessica: yeah
Natalie: well i'm cool with you so don't let others tell you i'm not
Jessica: okay Iwon't, you do the same.
Natalie: yes i will do the same

ROFL fake much? Seriously.. so I go to Nathan..

Jessica: ROFL me and seb just had the fakest convo ever
Nathan: i dont know why you even try with him
Jessica: I'm not trying
Jessica: I'm just doing what he's doing right back at him
Jessica: lmao
Jessica: he's like I'm not after you, I never told will to nominate you
Jessica: it's like oh really?
Jessica: are you sure about that? lol
Jessica: I can't wait to finally be able to say.. MY EX TOLD ME EVERYTHING YOU SAID YOU DUMB SHIT.
Jessica: including trying to cyber with him.. eww.
Nathan: WHAT
Nathan: SICK
Jessica: I know!


Yeah I don't know wtf Natalie thinks she's doing with Eddie but it's totally creeping him out. Natalie is just a creeper. Better lock your doors and secure those curtains kids, Natalie's on the loose! First Matty now Eddie. Nobody is safe!

[Jessica Hughbanks]

This is why Will and I don't connect..

Jessica (2:12:55 PM): hey
Will (2:15:07 PM): hi
Jessica (2:15:28 PM): how are you?
Will (2:16:45 PM): I'm good. a little tired
Will (2:16:46 PM): you?
Jessica (2:17:35 PM): same
Will is offline (3:13:50 PM)

....


Left timestamps for the full effect.. Seriously he's almost impossible to talk to.. I mean if you want a boring conversation never fear Will is there to supply one! I promise you will have loads and loads of them just about identical to the one above or your money back guaranteed!

The only time I really got anything out of him was if I pushed the conversation or when I was trying to get him not to nominate him but yet again forced him to have to talk to me. Then when I was nominated.. forced him to talk to me. It's not like he's ever messaged me. And he wonders why he feels like everyone else is connected and he's outta the loop. *rolls eyes* get a brain. Or at least some social skills .

[Jessica Hughbanks]

Ugh this day is just going down the shitter.

FIRST NATALIE WINS THE VETO like for fuck sake.. Renny is coming off the block 100%, that fucking sucks ass.

Now Dave wins veto and I'm happy about it till he tells me he's 90% sure he's not going to use it. UM SAY WHAT. He's going to tell me why before he posts his decision but omg what the hell did I do. Is he already turning his back on the season 1 alliance?! It's not even the end of week 1! I'm not happy here.. not at all because I could leave. I used to have faith i would stay but now I'm not so sure.. I'm just freaking out all over the place .

I hope his show isn't long.. I NEED to get him to use the veto on me. This is ridiculous!

[Jessica Hughbanks]

FUCK YOU DAVE, FUCK YOU TO HELL! OMG I'M SO MAD.

This is the end of you Dave. Seriously. You and me. We're done.

I mean what makes you think I think you'd keep me over Nathan?! My trust for you. Gone. Fucker.

I tried to say ANYTHING I possibly could to save myself. Now Natalie is saying I'm gone.. whatever. I honestly don't think I will be but it's possible.

Let's put the cast here.. who I think will vote for who between Nathan and me.

Dave: Nathan
Jason: Nathan (I will believe it when I see it)
Jessica: Nominated
Lydia: Nathan
Nathan: Nominated
Renny: Jessica
Sarah: Jessica
Will: HOH can't vote

Chelsia: Nathan
Eddie: Nathan
James: Jessica
Jun: Jessica
Natalie: Jessica
Rachel: Nathan
Roddy: Nathan
Sheila: HOH can't vote

So the vote would be a 7-5... If my assumptions are correct. But Jun is an iffy one there.

Time to go and make sure I am safe with Roddy and Lydia.. apparently they are the swing votes *rolls eyes*.

[Jessica Hughbanks]

Natalie: hi
Jessica: hey
Natalie: good luck on being saved
Jessica: I doubt I will be
Natalie: love you too
Jessica: ?
Natalie: i hear you're annoyed i got veto
Jessica: oh really? that's funny since I didn't tell anyone anything
Natalie: yes you did
Natalie: how does it feel to be first boot kenya?
Jessica: who?
Natalie: bye bye bitch.
Jessica: lol what are you gonna do if I stay? I don't expect to but what if I did.
Natalie: you wont

FUCK YOU NATALIE YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT! I mean you assume everyone is fucking honest with you when they aren't so just go to fucking hell and burn bitch burn. If I stay.. IT'S ON!!! It is TOTALLY ON!

Here is the conversation with the worst news ever.. this just killed me.. it's made me so upset.

Jessica: are you gonna use the veto on me?
Dave: but jess, i am just gonna be honest with you, i am like 90% leaning toward not using the veto
Dave: i mean, we can talk about it later if you want
Dave: before i post my decision tho
Dave: bc i feel i owe you that
Jessica: omg but why are you leaning towards that?
Dave: i can explain later, if that's cool
Dave: when we are done watching this
Jessica: okay just don't post anything till you talk to me please
Dave: yeah, i wont
Jessica: k thanks
Dave: yw
Jessica: Does this have anything to do with me saying I would vote you out if you were up against Renny? Because I lied about that to not have 2 season 1ers up together.
Dave: no, it doesnt have anything to do with that... i'm not sure where you got that from
Jessica: Oh I just thought maybe Will mentioned that or something to you because that's the only thing I can think of that could push you towards not using it.
Dave: haha, no its not that
Dave: look, i dont want you gone, but i want nathan gone, and i feel like keeping you both up is helpful in that happening....
Jessica: I get you want Nathan gone but now I'm so paranoid that I feel I may leave over him.
Jessica: I mean you said you would use it on me.. if you weren't nominated.. and I tried hard to make sure you weren't nominated.
Dave: i said i would consider, and i have
Dave: jess, look
Dave: i am being hoenst with you
Dave: i like you and i dont want you gone
Dave: but you have a lot of connections
Jessica: but my loyalty is to season 1
Dave: and that scares me
Jessica: Iv'e already said that
Dave: then you should be safe
Dave: bc i am not voting for you
Dave: and they shouldnt either
Dave: and you have sheila
Jessica: sheila is the hoh
Jessica: she can't vote
Dave: oh, right
Jessica: and I just voted sheila out of a game.
Jessica: so she could get anyone that she likes to vote me out.
Dave: you've also voted me out of a game... that means nothing
Jessica: but I had no loyalty to you in that game.
Dave: but, what i am saying, is that i think you view me as a friend, and i honestly think that your loyalty to me in this game is limited
Dave: it will eventually come time where you go with your "true alliance"
Dave: which makes sense
Dave: you are a smart player
Dave: i know you are not going after me
Dave: and i am not going after you
Jessica: you could be part of my true alliance. I don't have anything set in stone. The only thing set right now is the season 1 alliance
Jessica: and a lot of people in this game dont' like me
Jessica: and will vote against me
Dave: i think you and i both know that the s1 alliance is just a formality... that none of us are going after one another.... i honestly dont trust anyone enough to stick my neck out for them at this point
Dave: and i have made that clear to ppl, including you
Jessica: I'm telling you I will leave if I stay up against Nathan..
Dave: you know how much i am not trusting ppl
Dave: it doesnt mean i dont like you or want you gone
Dave: well i just have to hope that;s not the case
Jessica: theres how many votes 12?
Dave: yes
Dave: if you have me, jason, chelsia, eddie, rachel
Dave: that's 5
Jessica: crazy james, jun, nat, sarah, renny, jason are for sure votes against me.
Jessica: I don't know what the heck lydia or roddy will do
Jessica: jason will vote me out over nathan
Jessica: he told me that he'd use the veto on nathan over me if he won it.
Jessica: that's why I thought he was being shady.
Dave: yeah, you told me that
Dave: look, i like you, but i just cant see me using the veto as coming out good for me
Jessica: I mean if you want nathan to leave I will vote him out, I just dont' want to be on the chance and have a chance of me going.
Jessica: don't want there to be a chance of me leaving*
Dave: i hate to say it, but i dont believe that you wuld vote for nathan over renny
Jessica: renny won't stay on the block
Jessica: nat is gonna save renny
Dave: so then nathan over who?
Jessica: whoever will puts up
Dave: you would even vote him out over jason?
Jessica: yes if that's what you want.
Jessica: I'm sick of people assuming that I'm 100% with Nathan.
Jessica: if I need to vote against him to prove that I will.
Dave: i appreciate that, but i dont think i am changing
Dave: sorry jess
Dave: you can hate me
Dave: but i do wish you the best of luck
Jessica: well I won't stay.
Dave: which is why i wanted to at least tell you first
Jessica: everyone loves nathan.
Jessica: that's why will put me up against him
Jessica: to get me out
Jessica: not nathan
Dave: and give you that, rather than just ignoring you and being a dick about it
Jessica: I don't want to be out first in this game it's my last game.
Jessica: that's not a line either
Jessica: it's the truth
Dave: im sorry to hear that
Dave: look, i gotta go
Dave: i need to put up veto
Dave: and kara wants me to get off
Dave: i do wish you the best
Dave: and will not vote for you
Dave: i am sorry it came to this
Jessica: I feel so betrayed
Dave: sorry. ttyl
Jessica: And you lied.
Dave: ppl lie in these games jess
Jessica: you never said you'd consider it you said you'd use it if you werne't up.
Dave: you know that
Jessica: but of all people I didn't think you'd lie to me.


So there was my attempt to save myself.. Honestly I would not have voted out Nathan over anyone! But I had to try every angle. So yeah I guess he caught my bluff on that one lol. But I knew if I could get myself off, I could probably save Nathan!!! But now I can't and now one of us will be leaving and it will be a very sad start to this game. I'm so upset. Dave is an idiot.. we need Nathan to help with challenges or we will keep losing!!!!

I do feel like I should just tell everyone to vote me out.. to keep Nathan. I'm so upset I feel like I failed Nathan. I feel like it's my fault that he's in this position. *sigh*

If I do end up staying.. I'm out for blood. I'm so pissed off and I will NOT be nice about it either. FUCK EVERYONE. Nathan is the only one that keeps me sane.. if he's not here.. the gloves are off and I will not care who I betray. OMG I'm so angry and upset all at once!