Sarah's Diary Room - Episode 8

[Sarah Hrejsa]

~ Episode 8 ~

Well, this week could have been better but any week where an "enemy" leaves instead of me is a good week, right? I hate to call Alex that but if he's not with me, he's against me.

I really wanted Alex to go over Josh last week but, apparently, Roddy and Alex made some kind of a deal. Renny started the "keep Alex" ball rolling when she decided to change her vote. I wasn't happy but decided the best thing was to say I understood with her. But, that gave Roddy the opening he needed and I think he either has something already with Alex or he created something new. Alex told Renny he had no one so, if that was true, he needed to work some people. Roddy voting to keep Alex meant that Lydia was definitely keeping him, too. These two share one mind in this game so they are basically like one person with two votes, two chances at HOH, two chances at Veto. They need to leave - and soon. Eddie kept Alex, too, but I understand his reasons more. He could be lying but I think he just went with the majority. The night before he was telling me what a "no-brainer" it was to boot Alex and then he kept him. I believe Eddie, despite the fact he's a sneaky sinner.

I did get really mad at Eddie (and Jun), though. It happened because of the HOH. I was PISSED!!! Eddie was targeting Nathan, which was not really a big deal for me; however, taking me out first in the HOH and publicly announcing it was because I like Nathan did not make me happy. Actually, I do like Nathan but I do NOT love him in this game and I want him out just about as much as Eddie does. I just need someone else to take him out for me. And Eddie would have been fine to do that job but I knew this week it wasn't going to happen. Not when Renny still had the coup. She would never let her precious Nathan go and that is exactly why I want him gone gone gone!!! That, and the fact that the farther he gets the higher his chances are to get to the F2.

Jun really annoyed me, too. First, when she didn't use the veto on Renny and then voted her out. She showed right there where her loyalties lie. And taking Will out over Lydia - WTF!!! She said she wanted someone "new" to win HOH if she couldn't? UM, are you serious?!?!? If that's true, why not keep Alex in the damn game and let him win HOH? He just cannot be serious.

So, after the HOH I was pissed at both of them and I let them know. I just wasn't in a mood to hide it.


This was near the end of the HOH when we had to vote for Lydia or Eddie:

Dustin/Jun (8:37:54 PM): i voting
Dustin/Jun (8:37:55 PM): for eddie
Dustin/Jun (8:37:57 PM): and you?
Buffy Zanzibar (8:38:15 PM): dont talk to me
Dustin/Jun (8:38:23 PM): what?
Dustin/Jun (8:38:24 PM): wtf
Dustin/Jun (8:38:25 PM): T_T
Dustin/Jun (8:38:37 PM): what did i do wrong
Buffy Zanzibar (8:38:41 PM): voted me out
Dustin/Jun (8:38:42 PM): i got alex out so he couldnt nominate us
Buffy Zanzibar (8:38:46 PM): got them to eliminate me
Dustin/Jun (8:38:46 PM): wtf no i didnt
Buffy Zanzibar (8:38:52 PM): kept eddie
Dustin/Jun (8:39:38 PM): k
Dustin/Jun (8:42:12 PM): so dont say I voted you out
Dustin/Jun (8:42:16 PM): I wanted you to stay
Buffy Zanzibar (8:42:27 PM): well you were with them on the plan to knock me out
Buffy Zanzibar (8:42:30 PM): right?
Dustin/Jun (8:42:32 PM): no
Dustin/Jun (8:42:35 PM): i had no clue
Dustin/Jun (8:42:39 PM): i thought you were staying like
Dustin/Jun (8:42:44 PM): 5-2
Dustin/Jun (8:42:51 PM): or w/e it was
Buffy Zanzibar (8:43:02 PM): doesn't matter - it shows me where i stand
Dustin/Jun (8:43:53 PM): its okay
Dustin/Jun (8:43:57 PM): you wont go anywhere
Buffy Zanzibar (8:44:11 PM): i know
Buffy Zanzibar (8:44:13 PM): :-)
Dustin/Jun (8:45:23 PM): im going to do everything I can to make sure he doesnt nominate you
Buffy Zanzibar (8:45:47 PM): don't worry about it
Dustin/Jun (8:45:58 PM): i will fight tooth and nail to make sure you dont leave
Dustin/Jun (8:45:59 PM): h
Buffy Zanzibar (8:45:59 PM): this was a very valuable HOH to me
Buffy Zanzibar (8:46:07 PM): it told me a lot :-)


And with Eddie during and after:

Buffy Zanzibar (8:06:55 PM): [thanks]
Eddie (8:07:15 PM): sorry!
Eddie (8:07:19 PM): I need Nathan out
Eddie (8:07:26 PM): I'm going by who likes him first
Buffy Zanzibar (8:09:31 PM): wow thanks
Eddie (8:09:44 PM): Renny begged me for it
Buffy Zanzibar (8:09:47 PM): idc

Buffy Zanzibar (8:50:56 PM): so can I ask why you decided to take me out?
Eddie (8:51:47 PM): Nathan is coming after me
Eddie (8:51:57 PM): season 2 episodes tell me you wouldn't want Nathan to lose yet
Eddie (8:52:03 PM): it all came down to that really
Buffy Zanzibar (8:52:41 PM): ah well thanks for showing me where i stand with you
Buffy Zanzibar (8:52:45 PM): that was really valuable to know
Eddie (8:53:58 PM): it wasn't personal
Eddie (8:54:07 PM): I don't have a thing against Renny either
Eddie (8:54:11 PM): and I put him up a ton
Buffy Zanzibar (8:55:05 PM): it was personal since you said you are with me this whole game and yet you took me out first
Eddie (8:58:28 PM): I took out Jun before Lydia
Eddie (8:58:31 PM): come on
Eddie (8:58:51 PM): this wasn't an exercise in loyalities
Eddie (8:58:53 PM): and Renny put me up
Eddie (8:59:07 PM): I'm not pissed at him for that
Buffy Zanzibar (8:59:08 PM): in the mini game?
Eddie (8:59:10 PM): yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (8:59:14 PM): you put her up first lol
Eddie (8:59:19 PM): lol true
Eddie (8:59:24 PM): I mean what do you want me to say
Buffy Zanzibar (8:59:31 PM): nothing eddie
Buffy Zanzibar (9:00:03 PM): I just feel like there was a plan hatched but idk why i was at the top of your list
Eddie (9:00:55 PM): plan?
Eddie (9:01:09 PM): yeah my plan was Sarah is one of the best comp players
Eddie (9:01:19 PM): people like Will, Jun, and Lydia suck at them more
Eddie (9:01:23 PM): keep people like that longer in the mini
Buffy Zanzibar (9:01:52 PM): ooh rude
Buffy Zanzibar (9:01:53 PM): :-P
Buffy Zanzibar (9:19:40 PM): searching for powers?
Eddie (9:20:34 PM): :-)
Buffy Zanzibar (9:20:40 PM): good luck
Eddie (9:20:44 PM): what's your favorite number out of 3
Buffy Zanzibar (9:21:01 PM): my favorite number is... 2
Eddie (9:23:30 PM): so wait this means I should stay away from 2?
Eddie (9:23:43 PM): I'm confused
Buffy Zanzibar (9:24:06 PM): no
Eddie (9:24:07 PM): ask a non-informative question- get a noninformative answer
Eddie (9:24:09 PM): lol!
Eddie (9:24:16 PM): which safe did you pick?
Buffy Zanzibar (9:24:18 PM): i thought you meant favorite for you
Eddie (9:24:28 PM): eh you're mad at me
Eddie (9:24:40 PM): your answer is going to be potentially mean
Buffy Zanzibar (9:24:42 PM): are you putting me up?
Eddie (9:24:53 PM): no
Buffy Zanzibar (9:25:12 PM): lol hesitation
Buffy Zanzibar (9:25:25 PM): if i were you i'd pick safe 2
Buffy Zanzibar (9:25:25 PM): js
Eddie (9:26:59 PM): what's wrong with safe 1?
Buffy Zanzibar (9:27:11 PM): nothing
Buffy Zanzibar (9:27:13 PM): pick that one
Eddie (9:27:25 PM): what about safe 3?
Buffy Zanzibar (9:27:33 PM): that's a good one too
Eddie (9:27:43 PM): you like all the safes
Buffy Zanzibar (9:27:46 PM): yeah :-)
Eddie (9:27:50 PM): so who else is in our club?
Buffy Zanzibar (9:27:59 PM): lol you got your key right?
Buffy Zanzibar (9:28:06 PM): I believe it tells you
Eddie (9:28:15 PM): I mean it tells me what it takes
Buffy Zanzibar (9:28:19 PM): mhm
Eddie (9:28:21 PM): and I could figure out in two seconds
Eddie (9:28:26 PM): but I'm too lazy to think
Buffy Zanzibar (9:28:27 PM): well you were pretty good with those answers tonight
Buffy Zanzibar (9:28:35 PM): so I'm sure you can figure it out
Eddie (9:28:44 PM): I suck at stuff :-(
Buffy Zanzibar (9:28:47 PM): nah
Buffy Zanzibar (9:28:53 PM): you're great at stuff
Eddie (9:28:56 PM): awww
Buffy Zanzibar (9:29:08 PM): better than I knew
Eddie (9:36:45 PM): so if we're so tight
Eddie (9:36:55 PM): why did I have to find out about Pandora the hard way
Buffy Zanzibar (9:37:13 PM): Well, I guess we're not since you didn't want me to win HOH
Buffy Zanzibar (9:40:19 PM): at least i voted for you to win :-P
Eddie (9:40:32 PM): haha thanks
Buffy Zanzibar (9:41:16 PM): np
Buffy Zanzibar (9:41:21 PM): let me know if you need help with your safe
Buffy Zanzibar (9:53:23 PM): www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZuZ8TkuTx0

Eddie (10:00:36 PM): lol you're cute
Eddie (10:00:43 PM): :-)
Buffy Zanzibar (10:00:47 PM): tell me something i don't already know
Eddie (10:00:55 PM): I won't put you up
Buffy Zanzibar (10:00:59 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (10:01:17 PM): why I'm not in the friends of Nathan club anymore? :-P
Eddie (10:01:23 PM): I'm having a minor freakout though that you're taking me taking you out of that comp first way too personally
Eddie (10:01:32 PM): but other than that you're great in my book
Eddie (10:01:36 PM): and the Nathan club doesn't matter
Eddie (10:01:39 PM): I'm killing it this week
Buffy Zanzibar (10:01:44 PM): what does that mean?
Eddie (10:01:48 PM): Nathan is going up for sure
Buffy Zanzibar (10:01:49 PM): ohhh
Buffy Zanzibar (10:01:51 PM): i see
Buffy Zanzibar (10:01:52 PM): well duh
Buffy Zanzibar (10:01:59 PM): that's quite obvious
Eddie (10:02:59 PM): I mean honestly you did make a huge game move for Nathan in season 2
Eddie (10:03:10 PM): so I'd have to be stupid to completely think you hate him or something
Buffy Zanzibar (10:03:11 PM): why are you on me about season 2?
Buffy Zanzibar (10:03:13 PM): OMG
Buffy Zanzibar (10:03:22 PM): I am not playing the same game as season 2
Buffy Zanzibar (10:03:24 PM): so rude
Eddie (10:03:25 PM): I know
Buffy Zanzibar (10:03:30 PM): I'm going to go read season 1 now
Eddie (10:03:33 PM): no what I'm saying is that was my only reason
Eddie (10:03:35 PM): on a personal level
Eddie (10:03:38 PM): I really really like you
Buffy Zanzibar (10:03:43 PM): and make you pay for all thosee decisions you made back then :-P
Buffy Zanzibar (10:03:44 PM): lol
Eddie (10:03:45 PM): and once I get rid of Nathan
Eddie (10:03:50 PM): that takes out any potential
Eddie (10:03:53 PM): ex-lover conflict
Buffy Zanzibar (10:03:58 PM): ah so you want me to yourself?
Eddie (10:04:02 PM): yes
Buffy Zanzibar (10:04:10 PM): it's like the same old story
Buffy Zanzibar (10:04:14 PM): everyone wants me
Buffy Zanzibar (10:04:17 PM): what can I say? :-P
Eddie (10:05:21 PM): are you still mad at me?
Buffy Zanzibar (10:06:36 PM): it's just hard to stay mad at you eddie
Buffy Zanzibar (10:06:38 PM): and plus
Buffy Zanzibar (10:06:45 PM): i'm going to get a glass of wine
Eddie (10:09:36 PM): wine heals all wounds
Buffy Zanzibar (10:11:37 PM): :-)
Buffy Zanzibar (10:12:07 PM): which safe did you pick?
Eddie (10:21:30 PM): I picked number 3
Eddie (10:21:33 PM): is this a dead end?
Buffy Zanzibar (10:22:41 PM): you picked 3???
Buffy Zanzibar (10:22:44 PM): seriously?
Buffy Zanzibar (10:22:47 PM): OMG
Eddie (10:22:49 PM): what?
Buffy Zanzibar (10:22:50 PM): I told you to pick 2
Eddie (10:22:53 PM): I know
Eddie (10:22:55 PM): but I thought you hated me
Buffy Zanzibar (10:22:57 PM): you just don't trust me do you?
Eddie (10:23:01 PM): not at that moment!
Buffy Zanzibar (10:23:04 PM): ah
Eddie (10:23:05 PM): you were a woman scorned!
Buffy Zanzibar (10:23:08 PM): well good luck in safe 3 :-)
Eddie (10:23:15 PM): come on
Buffy Zanzibar (10:23:19 PM): shoulda listened
Eddie (10:23:21 PM): did you get the prize already?
Buffy Zanzibar (10:23:26 PM): prize?
Buffy Zanzibar (10:23:30 PM): there's a prize?
Eddie (10:23:32 PM): power
Buffy Zanzibar (10:23:40 PM): i thought the safe was the prize
Buffy Zanzibar (10:23:48 PM): the accomplishment of getting there
Buffy Zanzibar (10:23:52 PM): what are you saying?
Eddie (10:23:55 PM): come on
Eddie (10:23:58 PM): LOL
Buffy Zanzibar (10:24:08 PM): i'm a woman scorned?
Eddie (10:24:10 PM): ugh we're like the most dysfunctional couple right now
Eddie (10:45:40 PM): like I'm worried about you working with Nathan for one
Buffy Zanzibar (10:46:03 PM): obviously you are - which is why you took me out
Eddie (10:46:05 PM): and Nathan is working with Renny
Eddie (10:46:12 PM): so is Nathan/Renny/Sarah the new Nathan/Sheila/Sarah
Buffy Zanzibar (10:46:13 PM): why did you keep renny over me?
Eddie (10:46:31 PM): Honestly
Buffy Zanzibar (10:46:35 PM): mhm
Eddie (10:46:56 PM): he IMed me right away and said "you owe me, I should stay"
Eddie (10:46:59 PM): or something like that
Eddie (10:47:05 PM): and with only 30 seconds to decide
Buffy Zanzibar (10:47:05 PM): okay...
Eddie (10:47:09 PM): I just went for it
Buffy Zanzibar (10:47:15 PM): so because I didn't think i needed to IM you...
Buffy Zanzibar (10:47:45 PM): the mini played out like i think you want the game to play out
Eddie (10:47:54 PM): I don't want final 2 with lydia
Eddie (10:48:02 PM): AT ALL
Eddie (10:48:19 PM): because in real life it wouldn't be a blowout in votes
Buffy Zanzibar (10:48:22 PM): well who do you want f2 with?
Buffy Zanzibar (10:48:32 PM): kyle?
Buffy Zanzibar (10:48:35 PM): is that why you kept him?
Eddie (10:48:46 PM): LOL
Eddie (10:48:50 PM): I got nothing with Kyle
Buffy Zanzibar (10:48:51 PM): lol
Eddie (10:48:57 PM): and no
Buffy Zanzibar (10:49:01 PM): jun
Eddie (10:49:14 PM): not Jun
Buffy Zanzibar (10:49:16 PM): lol i'll hit it eventually
Eddie (10:49:20 PM): look Sarah
Eddie (10:49:23 PM): to be honest
Eddie (10:49:27 PM): I don't play with tunnel vision
Eddie (10:49:31 PM): like I don't win comps all the time
Eddie (10:49:36 PM): so I try to make the best with what's there
Eddie (10:49:43 PM): so I don't think "oh I have to get to final 2 with this person"
Eddie (10:49:50 PM): and no one offers me final 2 deals anyways
Eddie (10:49:54 PM): so I don't have to think about it
Buffy Zanzibar (10:49:55 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (10:50:01 PM): awww Eddie :-(
Eddie (10:50:06 PM): I know
Eddie (10:50:08 PM): that's kind of my game
Eddie (10:51:41 PM): the mini
Eddie (10:51:45 PM): doesn't look like my bootlist at all
Buffy Zanzibar (10:52:19 PM): well you were wayyyy low on mine :-P
Eddie (10:52:25 PM): "were"
Buffy Zanzibar (10:52:28 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (10:54:12 PM): so you don't want me out after nathan and/or renny?
Eddie (10:54:41 PM): No!
Eddie (10:54:56 PM): and idk where I stand with Renny
Eddie (10:55:02 PM): although I definitely like you more than Renny
Eddie (10:55:09 PM): unlike what the comp seemed to present
Eddie (10:55:12 PM): my problem is Nathan
Buffy Zanzibar (10:56:12 PM): i don't think it matters who you "like" more
Buffy Zanzibar (10:56:19 PM): like you said, you're not playing with tunnel vision
Buffy Zanzibar (10:56:35 PM): did that make sesnse?
Buffy Zanzibar (10:56:36 PM): lol
Eddie (10:57:34 PM): it makes sense
Eddie (10:57:45 PM): in my world there's not really problem people
Eddie (10:57:51 PM): there are problem situations
Eddie (10:59:10 PM): and I'm going to say stuff that I didn't feel comfortable talking about but I think its one of those things
Eddie (10:59:13 PM): that if we don't talk about it
Eddie (10:59:23 PM): its just a waste opprotunity
Buffy Zanzibar (10:59:27 PM): ok
Eddie (10:59:29 PM): I mean I see two things happening right now
Eddie (10:59:57 PM): 1) you take this mini hard, I freak out about that, we destroy each other, it's a mess we both lose
Eddie (11:00:24 PM): 2) we deal with the issues this presented and be an even more solid pair
Eddie (11:00:29 PM): than we were before this even started
Eddie (11:00:37 PM): ok so
Eddie (11:00:46 PM): this is basically my file on Sarah:
Buffy Zanzibar (11:01:21 PM): you have a file on me?
Eddie (11:01:24 PM): Pos: really fun to talk to, charming personality, someone I really admire, been my fantasy to work with since season 2, someone I could see myself going to the final 2 with
Eddie (11:01:31 PM): (this is me making this file right now)
Buffy Zanzibar (11:01:35 PM): oh
Buffy Zanzibar (11:01:39 PM): pos?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:01:46 PM): oh
Buffy Zanzibar (11:01:48 PM): nm
Eddie (11:03:00 PM): Con: Has a relationships with a lot of people who are good at comps, one of which seems to really want me out, a Renny/Nathan/Sarah teamup seems like a huge possiblity. On top of that very cautious around me, doesn't want to tell me too much...seems to be scared that I'm out to destroy her game
Buffy Zanzibar (11:03:28 PM): who really wants you out?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:03:32 PM): are you talking about nathan?
Eddie (11:03:35 PM): yes
Buffy Zanzibar (11:03:37 PM): oh
Buffy Zanzibar (11:03:42 PM): well first i've heard
Buffy Zanzibar (11:03:47 PM): honestly i barely talk to nathan
Buffy Zanzibar (11:03:52 PM): but i won't say i don't like nathan
Buffy Zanzibar (11:03:59 PM): i mean i'm not going to lie
Eddie (11:04:05 PM): ok but I can say for sure that you're scared of me a bit
Eddie (11:04:09 PM): like you don't want to talk about the votes
Eddie (11:04:11 PM): unless you're HOH
Buffy Zanzibar (11:04:18 PM): you know why i'm scared?
Eddie (11:04:21 PM): why?
Eddie (11:05:24 PM): Sarah?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:05:38 PM): because I honestly don't know where you stand - I don't really know who your allies are, and I have heard stuff from other people that you have told them and it just seems like you tell them more than me
Buffy Zanzibar (11:05:51 PM): so I don't know where i am on your trust list i guess
Eddie (11:06:00 PM): ok but see that's where the problem is
Buffy Zanzibar (11:06:02 PM): like when sheila was in the house
Eddie (11:06:03 PM): the same thing you're thinking about me
Eddie (11:06:07 PM): is what I'm thinking about you
Buffy Zanzibar (11:06:14 PM): and you were talking about her
Eddie (11:06:14 PM): and we just end up in a cycle
Buffy Zanzibar (11:06:21 PM): i just didn't know if what i said to you would go to her
Buffy Zanzibar (11:06:33 PM): idk because you seem kind of cool with everyone i guess
Buffy Zanzibar (11:06:41 PM): like you're right
Buffy Zanzibar (11:06:47 PM): it is the same thing
Eddie (11:06:49 PM): I am and I'm not. Everyone wants to joke around with me no one wants to take me to the end
Buffy Zanzibar (11:07:24 PM): well i guess i figured you had some set alliance or person that you were close to
Eddie (11:07:30 PM): I did
Eddie (11:07:32 PM): Dave
Buffy Zanzibar (11:07:34 PM): oh
Eddie (11:07:35 PM): Seb
Eddie (11:07:37 PM): both gone
Eddie (11:07:42 PM): no one since then
Eddie (11:07:53 PM): I had a season 1 alliance, I'm the last season 1 person left lol
Eddie (11:07:59 PM): I'm not going to say I came into this game alone
Eddie (11:08:06 PM): but I'm at the point where I'm pretty solo right now
Buffy Zanzibar (11:08:15 PM): you didn't seem solo tonight
Buffy Zanzibar (11:08:21 PM): or was that my imagination?
Eddie (11:08:26 PM): what did it look like?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:08:36 PM): i mean tell me if it is cause sometimes i am just paranoid
Buffy Zanzibar (11:08:37 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (11:08:46 PM): but it looked like you/jun for one
Buffy Zanzibar (11:09:02 PM): and with the addition of lydia/roddy were working together
Buffy Zanzibar (11:09:13 PM): and the vote thing
Eddie (11:09:19 PM): ok me/jun is definitely a kind of but you're blowing it up
Eddie (11:09:26 PM): Jun just knows what I want to do
Buffy Zanzibar (11:09:31 PM): ok
Eddie (11:09:44 PM): she knows I want Nathan out and she's ok with that
Eddie (11:09:49 PM): that's all I can say
Buffy Zanzibar (11:09:51 PM): right
Eddie (11:10:09 PM): I can also say that Jun wouldn't have put me up this round, I think Alex would have to be gone before that happened
Eddie (11:10:21 PM): but we don't have a deal or anything
Eddie (11:10:30 PM): I mean people just know where I stand on some things
Eddie (11:10:34 PM): I really wanted Sheila out
Eddie (11:10:38 PM): so anyone who wanted Sheila out
Eddie (11:10:53 PM): was probably rooting for me to win whatever would get Sheila out
Buffy Zanzibar (11:11:16 PM): well what makes you think i want to keep nathan? i mean just curious
Buffy Zanzibar (11:11:19 PM): is it just season 2?
Eddie (11:11:27 PM): that's it
Buffy Zanzibar (11:11:32 PM): ok
Eddie (11:11:55 PM): and Jason kept harassing me
Eddie (11:12:00 PM): I guess to put me in line
Eddie (11:12:02 PM): with this whole TIB notion
Buffy Zanzibar (11:12:08 PM): jason?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:12:12 PM): what did he say?
Eddie (11:12:40 PM): like he can't being like "you're safe with me, if you try to get me out you're just going to screw yourself over because they are all on TIB, have connections, and will carry you for a while and throw you out"
Eddie (11:13:01 PM): and I saw his point but Jason is also on TIB
Eddie (11:13:06 PM): so that didn't help his case
Eddie (11:13:20 PM): but yeah I am worried about it
Buffy Zanzibar (11:13:39 PM): ah
Buffy Zanzibar (11:14:04 PM): my game is not that simple
Buffy Zanzibar (11:14:09 PM): and i was never with Jason
Buffy Zanzibar (11:14:23 PM): i put up alex/josh
Buffy Zanzibar (11:14:24 PM): they are tib
Eddie (11:14:29 PM): I know
Buffy Zanzibar (11:14:31 PM): i voted out seb
Buffy Zanzibar (11:14:35 PM): i voted out tlg
Buffy Zanzibar (11:14:46 PM): i voted out Jessica <333
Buffy Zanzibar (11:14:50 PM): omg that was fun
Eddie (11:14:52 PM): right, it's not a literal thing...it's not that TIB is like an alliance in my head
Eddie (11:15:03 PM): its that TIB is a place where strong bonds might get formed
Buffy Zanzibar (11:15:08 PM): ah
Eddie (11:15:13 PM): and Nathan could have been your TIB bff for all I know
Buffy Zanzibar (11:15:21 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (11:15:27 PM): no
Eddie (11:16:17 PM): I mean you ever watch a season of Survivor or Big Brother and go
Eddie (11:16:25 PM): OH MY GOD IF THESE TWO PEOPLE JUST TRUSTED EACH OTHER
Eddie (11:16:31 PM): AND TOOK A HUGE RISK
Buffy Zanzibar (11:16:35 PM): yes
Eddie (11:16:37 PM): THEY WOULDNT HAVE BOTH LOST
Eddie (11:16:45 PM): that's exactly how I feel about me and you
Eddie (11:16:51 PM): like we got so much potential as a force in this game
Eddie (11:16:58 PM): and we never got past our fears
Buffy Zanzibar (11:16:58 PM): I bet you say that to all the houseguests :-)
Eddie (11:17:04 PM): no I don't
Eddie (11:17:34 PM): the closest thing in this game was Nathan coming up to me and saying "we should work togather, no one will suspect"
Buffy Zanzibar (11:17:44 PM): really?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:17:51 PM): and you said no?
Eddie (11:17:52 PM): yep that's why I was pissed when shit got back to Sheila
Eddie (11:17:59 PM): not that in my head he was my final 2 partner
Eddie (11:18:02 PM): I mean I was on the block
Eddie (11:18:04 PM): when he did that
Eddie (11:18:07 PM): I wasn't going to mess around
Buffy Zanzibar (11:18:10 PM): what did he do?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:18:16 PM): he told sheila stuff you said?
Eddie (11:18:18 PM): yes
Buffy Zanzibar (11:18:21 PM): ah
Eddie (11:18:24 PM): Sheila said it back to me
Eddie (11:18:29 PM): probably thinking I said that to everyone or something
Eddie (11:18:35 PM): but I knew who I said it to
Buffy Zanzibar (11:18:42 PM): lol i think Nathan and I have voted differently for most votes
Buffy Zanzibar (11:18:52 PM): or at least wanted to if we didn't vote that round
Buffy Zanzibar (11:19:13 PM): yeah sheila's not one ot keep secrets very well
Buffy Zanzibar (11:19:24 PM): unless it benefits her to do so
Eddie (11:19:46 PM): yep
Eddie (11:20:14 PM): and yeah I guess the reason why I tried really hard today
Eddie (11:20:21 PM): is that I think the free ride is almost up
Eddie (11:20:38 PM): like maybe people didn't nominate me because there were better people to nominate
Buffy Zanzibar (11:20:40 PM): didyou save all those pages?
Eddie (11:20:50 PM): what pages?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:20:56 PM): for the comps
Eddie (11:21:05 PM): no
Eddie (11:21:08 PM): I didn't do it like that
Eddie (11:21:39 PM): I copied some stuff
Eddie (11:21:42 PM): to another document
Eddie (11:21:45 PM): but that's it
Buffy Zanzibar (11:22:03 PM): well
Eddie (11:22:05 PM): and not every answer was on them
Eddie (11:22:11 PM): I actually had a lucky guess at least two or three times
Buffy Zanzibar (11:22:15 PM): lol
Eddie (11:22:25 PM): well what?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:22:25 PM): omg
Buffy Zanzibar (11:22:30 PM): it's 11:22?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:22:33 PM): wow
Eddie (11:22:37 PM): :-(
Eddie (11:22:40 PM): do you have to leave
Eddie (11:22:44 PM): or do you have a bit more time?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:22:54 PM): i was just going to say well it's obvious from the chat that i was pissed
Eddie (11:23:06 PM): yep
Buffy Zanzibar (11:23:09 PM): so we should just use that
Eddie (11:23:17 PM): but are we cool?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:23:23 PM): i'm cool
Eddie (11:23:26 PM): actually I don't want to be cool
Eddie (11:23:29 PM): I want us to work togather
Buffy Zanzibar (11:23:29 PM): lol
Eddie (11:23:31 PM): we were cool before
Eddie (11:23:42 PM): and it was just kind of...floating along in fear
Eddie (11:23:49 PM): in terms of game
Buffy Zanzibar (11:23:54 PM): I always wanted to work with you
Eddie (11:24:00 PM): I kept expecting "Its really hard for me to do this to you Eddie but..."
Eddie (11:24:04 PM): and then a nom
Buffy Zanzibar (11:24:06 PM): I just didn't know who else you had like i said
Buffy Zanzibar (11:24:20 PM): did you?
Eddie (11:24:27 PM): I'll tell you exactly what i have
Eddie (11:24:32 PM): I have normal relations with Jun
Eddie (11:24:43 PM): I try to work on Will but I think Will works on everyone
Buffy Zanzibar (11:24:44 PM): what kind of relations? =-O
Eddie (11:24:49 PM): lol!
Eddie (11:25:01 PM): I have chummy talks with Renny
Eddie (11:25:03 PM): but I think that might end
Buffy Zanzibar (11:25:07 PM): lol
Eddie (11:25:24 PM): I started talking to Roddy as of the last two weeks really
Eddie (11:25:27 PM): and NEVER talk to Lydia
Eddie (11:25:29 PM): she's never on
Buffy Zanzibar (11:25:49 PM): I started talking to Roddy but then tonight he didn't talk to me
Buffy Zanzibar (11:25:54 PM): lydia didn't talk to me
Buffy Zanzibar (11:26:09 PM): and after the vote, and the fact thatyou, lydia, roddy didn't say anything to me before the HOH
Eddie (11:26:14 PM): Nathan and I had that "fight" the week Sheila left, and haven't talked since except today
Buffy Zanzibar (11:26:14 PM): and then what happened during the HOH
Buffy Zanzibar (11:26:27 PM): I just started feeling like you were all conspiring
Eddie (11:26:35 PM): I was copying and pasting shit to a word document
Eddie (11:26:45 PM): and I did that all at the last minute
Buffy Zanzibar (11:26:51 PM): yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (11:27:08 PM): what gight di dyou have the week sheila left?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:27:13 PM): *fight
Eddie (11:27:21 PM): I'll post it in my nomination cerermony
Eddie (11:27:27 PM): but yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (11:27:27 PM): oh
Eddie (11:27:31 PM): its not a huge thing
Eddie (11:27:33 PM): I told you the whole thing
Eddie (11:27:37 PM): he told something to Sheila
Buffy Zanzibar (11:27:41 PM): ah
Eddie (11:27:46 PM): but it was obvious there was a 3rd party
Eddie (11:27:49 PM): because Sheila said so
Eddie (11:27:52 PM): so at first he denied it
Eddie (11:27:56 PM): then blamed it on the 3rd party
Eddie (11:28:04 PM): which is still bad because there shouldn't be a 3rd party
Eddie (11:28:31 PM): then I was like "ok all is forgiven if you just give me the name of the 3rd party"
Buffy Zanzibar (11:28:36 PM): yeah i had no idea this was going on
Eddie (11:28:37 PM): and he wouldn't give it up
Eddie (11:28:41 PM): so I was like fine, fuck you
Eddie (11:29:02 PM): well didn't say fuck you
Eddie (11:29:11 PM): although it was a "fight"
Eddie (11:29:15 PM): there wasn't anger
Eddie (11:29:18 PM): screaming or any of that
Eddie (11:29:29 PM): just kind of like "huh we both realize now that we can't work togather"
Eddie (11:29:33 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (11:29:36 PM): right well i doubted there was with nathan lol
Eddie (11:29:50 PM): yeah well I can be OTT but
Eddie (11:29:52 PM): not there
Eddie (11:29:54 PM): we were both nice
Eddie (11:30:05 PM): well direct and formal I guess
Buffy Zanzibar (11:30:17 PM): yeah
Eddie (11:30:30 PM): so that's my whole game
Eddie (11:30:45 PM): basically
Eddie (11:30:56 PM): I mean if you have any questions
Buffy Zanzibar (11:31:11 PM): no i guess you laid it out for me lol
Eddie (11:31:15 PM): if something doesn't add up let me know
Eddie (11:31:20 PM): because that's honestly what I think of my game
Eddie (11:31:26 PM): maybe a mutual ally thinks there's something more
Eddie (11:31:30 PM): but as far as I know, that's that
Buffy Zanzibar (11:31:41 PM): mutual ally?
Eddie (11:31:48 PM): like you said people told you stuff I said
Buffy Zanzibar (11:31:53 PM): oh
Eddie (11:31:59 PM): and people toss out deals like "we should work togather"
Eddie (11:32:05 PM): but its never actually backed up in my case
Buffy Zanzibar (11:32:09 PM): well it just seemed like you and I always just joked around
Eddie (11:32:14 PM): right
Buffy Zanzibar (11:32:21 PM): and i heard stuff about your "strategy" from other people
Buffy Zanzibar (11:32:24 PM): not from you
Eddie (11:32:33 PM): and you never told me anything about your strategy to be fair
Buffy Zanzibar (11:34:06 PM): well my strategy is that you're right, I do have some "friends" in the game and my game is usually social. I mean obvious i have some enemies too - well obviously i do but one obvious one
Buffy Zanzibar (11:34:21 PM): i'm always cautious
Buffy Zanzibar (11:34:24 PM): not just with you
Buffy Zanzibar (11:34:34 PM): I have just beenburned before - talking to someone
Buffy Zanzibar (11:34:45 PM): and having them talk to others about what i said
Buffy Zanzibar (11:35:32 PM): but like with my sheila vote
Buffy Zanzibar (11:35:53 PM): I didn't really want to talk to you about it because it was a hard vote for me and I wanted to talkto her about it myself
Eddie (11:36:01 PM): I mean I get that
Eddie (11:36:08 PM): you didn't owe me an explanation on the Sheila vote
Buffy Zanzibar (11:36:13 PM): and i just didn't want it getting back to her
Buffy Zanzibar (11:36:21 PM): i wasn't going after sheila
Buffy Zanzibar (11:36:28 PM): i wasn't planning on targeting her
Buffy Zanzibar (11:36:33 PM): but when she was put up
Buffy Zanzibar (11:36:38 PM): i wasn't sad about it
Buffy Zanzibar (11:36:49 PM): and I had to do what was best for me
Buffy Zanzibar (11:37:06 PM): because as long as she and Jason were in the game togehter
Buffy Zanzibar (11:37:23 PM): they were going to be a hard force to get rid of
Buffy Zanzibar (11:37:28 PM): so I took the opportunity
Buffy Zanzibar (11:37:31 PM): and honestly
Buffy Zanzibar (11:37:43 PM): i usually play things by ear
Buffy Zanzibar (11:37:46 PM): round by round
Eddie (11:37:47 PM): same
Buffy Zanzibar (11:37:53 PM): i don't come in saying
Buffy Zanzibar (11:37:58 PM): i need to do this this this and this
Buffy Zanzibar (11:38:02 PM): well i have some ideas
Buffy Zanzibar (11:38:12 PM): like i definitely wanted jessica out
Buffy Zanzibar (11:38:14 PM): and jason
Buffy Zanzibar (11:38:19 PM): cause he can't be trusted
Buffy Zanzibar (11:38:20 PM): ever
Eddie (11:38:27 PM): he really can't
Buffy Zanzibar (11:38:33 PM): and tbh
Eddie (11:38:35 PM): I came into this game thinking he'd be my big ally
Buffy Zanzibar (11:38:38 PM): i have to be at this point
Eddie (11:38:43 PM): but a week in I was like OMG he's so shady like season 1
Buffy Zanzibar (11:38:48 PM): i have been wondering if I could trust you
Buffy Zanzibar (11:38:53 PM): like at first i was like
Buffy Zanzibar (11:38:57 PM): oh great - Eddie!
Buffy Zanzibar (11:39:06 PM): i wanted to work with you since we started talking season 2
Buffy Zanzibar (11:39:22 PM): but you seem to have a rep for being a bit sneaky :-P
Buffy Zanzibar (11:39:39 PM): so idk i just wasn't sure if i could trus tyo
Buffy Zanzibar (11:39:40 PM): u
Eddie (11:39:44 PM): right
Eddie (11:39:51 PM): well I played Warzone 1
Eddie (11:39:59 PM): which was my third ORG
Eddie (11:40:02 PM): right after
Eddie (11:40:19 PM): being brutally backstabbed by Nathan, Renny, and Sheila in Survivor Requiem
Buffy Zanzibar (11:40:20 PM): third?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:40:25 PM): oh really?
Eddie (11:40:26 PM): and I was totally loyal to them
Buffy Zanzibar (11:40:26 PM): lol
Eddie (11:40:31 PM): and I was like "this time I'm going to be a dick"
Eddie (11:40:33 PM): and that's what I did
Eddie (11:40:37 PM): I was on a negative high
Eddie (11:40:45 PM): and then that was my last ORG until now
Eddie (11:40:53 PM): and I'm not in that mind set at all
Eddie (11:40:58 PM): I think I'm putting up Renny
Eddie (11:41:07 PM): and its really kind of making me uncomfortable
Eddie (11:41:16 PM): eventhough it's just a game
Buffy Zanzibar (11:41:28 PM): why?
Eddie (11:41:40 PM): I don't think there's a good reason
Eddie (11:41:47 PM): I just don't like ruining other people's games
Eddie (11:41:54 PM): I just feel bad because he never put me up
Buffy Zanzibar (11:41:55 PM): awww
Eddie (11:42:04 PM): and never did anything bad
Buffy Zanzibar (11:42:10 PM): who did put you up?
Eddie (11:42:10 PM): never helped in a huge way other than avoid me in noms
Buffy Zanzibar (11:42:13 PM): sheila
Eddie (11:42:14 PM): Sheila
Eddie (11:42:15 PM): yeah
Eddie (11:42:46 PM): and then a part of me thinks it doesn't matter with Pandora's box
Eddie (11:42:50 PM): Renny probably has a coup
Eddie (11:42:55 PM): and will be HOH by tomorrow lol
Buffy Zanzibar (11:43:10 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (11:43:49 PM): well
Buffy Zanzibar (11:44:05 PM): I am sorry i got emotional and freaked out on you
Buffy Zanzibar (11:44:37 PM): and i'm not saying that so you won't put me up
Eddie (11:44:38 PM): no that's fine
Eddie (11:44:40 PM): that's legit
Eddie (11:44:47 PM): I was pissed when Sheila took me out of Eliminitor
Eddie (11:44:56 PM): and Sheila wasn't supposed to have my back
Eddie (11:45:02 PM): and me and you were cool
Eddie (11:45:06 PM): and I did that
Eddie (11:45:11 PM): I'm really sorry actually
Eddie (11:45:16 PM): that wasn't the move I should have made
Buffy Zanzibar (11:45:17 PM): but I guess I would rather confront you and "have it out" than act all fake
Eddie (11:45:23 PM): yeah definitely
Buffy Zanzibar (11:45:38 PM): yeah it just stung
Buffy Zanzibar (11:45:50 PM): i mean granted i guess i understand why
Buffy Zanzibar (11:45:56 PM): but it felt like a huge betrayal at the time
Buffy Zanzibar (11:46:37 PM): like i am not really a "calm" person
Eddie (11:46:41 PM): well I mean I knew I had to put someone up next to Nathan and most logically it'd be you or Renny...and you were super pissed and Renny thought everything was A-OK and it'd have been so convenient for me to just say "Sarah hates me I'll put her up and not think about this"
Buffy Zanzibar (11:46:42 PM): I get angry easily
Eddie (11:46:45 PM): but I told Renny he's going up
Buffy Zanzibar (11:46:47 PM): but then i calm down fast too
Eddie (11:46:51 PM): because I want to give it another chance
Buffy Zanzibar (11:47:24 PM): what did Renny say?
Eddie (11:47:36 PM): he cried to me about how he's always put up next to Nathan as a pawn
Eddie (11:47:39 PM): and Nathan wins veto
Eddie (11:47:41 PM): and he leaves
Eddie (11:48:11 PM): I mean I felt bad...but not for that reason
Eddie (11:48:28 PM): if things were so bad with Nathan he wouldn't constantly be working with him
Buffy Zanzibar (11:48:40 PM): you were thining about putting me up?
Eddie (11:48:52 PM): not really
Eddie (11:49:10 PM): but when I was about to tell Renny and screw up a relationship in this game
Eddie (11:49:29 PM): it flashed that "wow Sarah already hates me, this is probably a terrible game move"
Buffy Zanzibar (11:50:07 PM): well i don't hate you - but I guess like i said I'd rather be honest with yuou about how i feel
Eddie (11:50:16 PM): right
Eddie (11:50:23 PM): and I'm going to come to you with everything now
Buffy Zanzibar (11:50:27 PM): if you were mad at me i'd rather you tell me
Eddie (11:50:33 PM): now that I know that you don't trust me because I don't trust you
Buffy Zanzibar (11:50:33 PM): then act nice
Buffy Zanzibar (11:50:35 PM): and tell others
Eddie (11:50:42 PM): I will
Buffy Zanzibar (11:50:49 PM): lol
Eddie (11:50:50 PM): I would
Buffy Zanzibar (11:50:55 PM): that sounds hilarious
Buffy Zanzibar (11:51:12 PM): now that i know you don't trust me because i don't trust you - i'm going to tell you everything!
Eddie (11:51:24 PM): I promise to demean you in the most vulgar ways if you screw me or I feel screwed by you
Buffy Zanzibar (11:51:30 PM): hey
Eddie (11:51:36 PM): to be honest the one thing I was suprised about in that comp for sure
Buffy Zanzibar (11:51:36 PM): that's not what I'm into :-P
Eddie (11:51:40 PM): that makes no sense to me even now
Eddie (11:51:46 PM): is why Jun evicted Will
Eddie (11:51:48 PM): and not Lydia
Eddie (11:51:54 PM): but I'm not going to obsess about it
Buffy Zanzibar (11:52:03 PM): idk her bs about the "new" people being hoh was
Buffy Zanzibar (11:52:04 PM): uh
Buffy Zanzibar (11:52:05 PM): bs
Buffy Zanzibar (11:52:06 PM): lol
Eddie (11:52:11 PM): I mean she told me
Eddie (11:52:17 PM): that her targets were Alex and Lydia
Eddie (11:52:23 PM): that's why its particularly wtf
Buffy Zanzibar (11:52:23 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (11:52:26 PM): retard
Eddie (11:52:33 PM): its like you wanted to give the person you want out a 33% shot?
Eddie (11:52:35 PM): ok
Eddie (11:52:48 PM): I mean I want Nathan out so I go after Nathan
Eddie (11:52:52 PM): I wouldn't NOT vote out Nathan
Buffy Zanzibar (11:52:56 PM): right
Eddie (11:53:02 PM): and I thought Lydia and Alex were her Nathans
Eddie (11:53:08 PM): but ugh I don't even know
Eddie (11:53:12 PM): and then she handcuffs herself to Alex
Buffy Zanzibar (11:53:19 PM): lol
Eddie (11:53:19 PM): eventhough he doesn't get to vote
Buffy Zanzibar (11:53:22 PM): i know
Buffy Zanzibar (11:53:31 PM): well she had to do it before hoh i think
Eddie (11:53:49 PM): so I mean Jun and I have a good relationship I would say
Eddie (11:53:58 PM): and I want to be optimistic
Eddie (11:54:04 PM): but that stuff is just shady
Buffy Zanzibar (11:54:14 PM): yeah idk
Buffy Zanzibar (11:54:21 PM): i honestly don't know
Buffy Zanzibar (11:54:24 PM): when it comes to jun
Buffy Zanzibar (11:54:29 PM): it could just be her being dumb
Buffy Zanzibar (11:54:36 PM): but it is weird if she said that
Buffy Zanzibar (11:55:12 PM): would you have talked to me if i hadnt talked to you after the comp?
Eddie (11:55:19 PM): definitely
Eddie (11:55:28 PM): there was just so much shit going on
Eddie (11:55:30 PM): all of the sudden Pandora
Buffy Zanzibar (11:55:34 PM): yeah lol
Eddie (11:55:39 PM): and I was like ughhh I need to do this fast
Eddie (11:55:48 PM): because I figured out Alex was probably getting in too
Eddie (11:55:56 PM): since he's been on the block twice
Eddie (11:56:04 PM): and he got in only one hour before me
Eddie (11:56:08 PM): so I felt like I had to hurry
Buffy Zanzibar (11:56:19 PM): right
Buffy Zanzibar (11:56:24 PM): well i didn't really see him on though
Eddie (11:56:32 PM): yeah I didn't even pay attention
Eddie (11:56:38 PM): and EVERYONE suddenly remembered I'm in this game
Eddie (11:56:41 PM): and its time to talk to me
Buffy Zanzibar (11:56:45 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (11:56:47 PM): i know
Buffy Zanzibar (11:56:51 PM): that happened to me
Buffy Zanzibar (11:56:59 PM): i got all these IMs at the same time
Eddie (11:57:07 PM): yep and some people
Eddie (11:57:09 PM): just...
Eddie (11:57:10 PM): wow
Eddie (11:57:16 PM): you don't respond for two seconds
Buffy Zanzibar (11:57:18 PM): LOL
Buffy Zanzibar (11:57:20 PM): i know
Eddie (11:57:20 PM): and they think they are going up
Buffy Zanzibar (11:57:37 PM): well I guess other people were being nice so you wouldn't put them up
Buffy Zanzibar (11:57:41 PM): while i was being a bitch
Buffy Zanzibar (11:57:42 PM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (11:57:47 PM): Smart Sarah :-)
Eddie (11:57:52 PM): LOL!
Eddie (11:57:58 PM): only one other Warzone player has done this
Eddie (11:58:01 PM): that I know
Eddie (11:58:06 PM): Josh
Eddie (11:58:09 PM): Warzone 1 week 1
Eddie (11:58:11 PM): LOL
Buffy Zanzibar (11:58:11 PM): done what?
Eddie (11:58:21 PM): Josh flipped out because Dave got rid of him in the HOH comp
Buffy Zanzibar (11:58:25 PM): oh haha
Eddie (11:58:26 PM): so Dave put him up
Eddie (11:58:32 PM): but I mean that's even dumber
Eddie (11:58:37 PM): because they just met each other that day
Buffy Zanzibar (11:58:41 PM): well yeah
Buffy Zanzibar (11:58:49 PM): i mean we had a relationship
Eddie (11:58:51 PM): you had expectations that I just completely failed
Eddie (11:59:01 PM): so who are you close to?
Buffy Zanzibar (11:59:31 PM): lol I am kind of close to jun
Buffy Zanzibar (11:59:40 PM): and i yelled at her too
Buffy Zanzibar (11:59:42 PM): :-P
Buffy Zanzibar (12:00:19 AM): and other than that I obviously worked with renny to win the hoh - we had common goals
Buffy Zanzibar (12:00:23 AM): or so i thought at the time
Buffy Zanzibar (12:00:30 AM): until she changed her for from alex
Buffy Zanzibar (12:01:11 AM): but i don't know why you think i am with nathan - i mean i'm not even saying this so you won't put me up
Buffy Zanzibar (12:01:19 AM): you can put me up if you want
Buffy Zanzibar (12:01:20 AM): well no jk
Buffy Zanzibar (12:01:21 AM): :-P
Buffy Zanzibar (12:01:44 AM): but yeah i like nathan but like i said we barely talk
Buffy Zanzibar (12:02:01 AM): i talk to will sometimes but i agree with you that i think he talks to everyone
Eddie (12:02:03 AM): so if I put him up you won't fight for veto to save him?
Eddie (12:02:11 AM): I mean that's my only issue
Eddie (12:02:18 AM): if you tell me that you have to vote for him to stay
Buffy Zanzibar (12:02:19 AM): i will fight for veto so i don't get put up
Eddie (12:02:20 AM): I think I can work with that
Eddie (12:02:26 AM): LOL Sarah
Eddie (12:02:28 AM): you're safe
Eddie (12:02:31 AM): but go ahead
Buffy Zanzibar (12:02:34 AM): :-P
Eddie (12:02:37 AM): I'm not going to tell you to throw a comp
Eddie (12:02:39 AM): I want you to win
Eddie (12:02:49 AM): so I don't have to deal with more people in Pandora
Buffy Zanzibar (12:03:00 AM): i would keep renny over nathan
Eddie (12:03:07 AM): that's fair
Eddie (12:03:14 AM): that won't get you put up
Eddie (12:03:27 AM): I'll just harass everyone else
Eddie (12:03:35 AM): and he'll leave anyway :-)
Buffy Zanzibar (12:04:05 AM): I'm not throwing people under the bus to not get put up - i mean i am just being honest with what i would do
Eddie (12:04:43 AM): ohhh wait
Eddie (12:04:43 AM): misread that
Eddie (12:04:43 AM): so you would vote out Nathan?
Eddie (12:04:49 AM): I thought you said you wouldn't
Buffy Zanzibar (12:04:53 AM): over renny yes
Eddie (12:04:58 AM): but if you would
Eddie (12:04:58 AM): that's fine too
Eddie (12:05:10 AM): where's Will on your radar?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:05:17 AM): i like will
Buffy Zanzibar (12:05:27 AM): he's just so hard to read
Eddie (12:05:45 AM): he plays hard
Buffy Zanzibar (12:05:45 AM): like i think he is good with a lot of people
Eddie (12:05:48 AM): yeah
Eddie (12:05:58 AM): I found out he was good with Sheila and Jason too
Eddie (12:06:02 AM): which from Day 1
Buffy Zanzibar (12:06:03 AM): oh really?
Eddie (12:06:05 AM): would be the last people
Eddie (12:06:08 AM): I thought he'd be cool with
Buffy Zanzibar (12:06:11 AM): but he backdoored her
Eddie (12:06:13 AM): yeah
Eddie (12:06:19 AM): that's when that relationship went bad
Eddie (12:06:37 AM): but notice how he had to have a whole thing at the veto speech
Buffy Zanzibar (12:06:54 AM): no i don't remember it
Eddie (12:06:56 AM): it sounded like he was blindsiding a good friend that wasn't seeing it coming or something
Buffy Zanzibar (12:07:29 AM): well they worked together a little in wz2
Buffy Zanzibar (12:07:33 AM): but mostly not
Buffy Zanzibar (12:07:42 AM): but after that in MG10 on tib
Buffy Zanzibar (12:07:48 AM): they were really close allie
Buffy Zanzibar (12:07:49 AM): s
Buffy Zanzibar (12:07:58 AM): which is what i thought would happen in this game
Buffy Zanzibar (12:08:00 AM): but i never saw it
Eddie (12:08:15 AM): yeah he's cool but I don't have a big read
Eddie (12:08:19 AM): and also Roddy
Eddie (12:08:25 AM): who is he with except Lydia
Eddie (12:08:32 AM): or is that just it
Buffy Zanzibar (12:08:35 AM): idk
Buffy Zanzibar (12:08:41 AM): i get the feeling that's mostly it
Eddie (12:08:49 AM): Jason tried to get an alliance togather
Eddie (12:08:53 AM): that wasn't going to have any part of
Buffy Zanzibar (12:08:57 AM): but tonight i just thought that you, jun, roddy and lydia were working together
Eddie (12:09:05 AM): but it was supposed to be me, jason, josh, roddy, lydia
Eddie (12:09:11 AM): so maybe Roddy was with Jason
Buffy Zanzibar (12:09:17 AM): like you three basically controlled the alex/josh vote
Eddie (12:09:27 AM): I voted Alex out
Buffy Zanzibar (12:09:30 AM): he would have left
Buffy Zanzibar (12:09:33 AM): you did?
Eddie (12:09:37 AM): because I found out that both Roddy, Renny, and Jason did it
Buffy Zanzibar (12:09:40 AM): i thought you said there weren't the votes
Eddie (12:09:49 AM): I found out at the last minute
Buffy Zanzibar (12:09:57 AM): oh you had already voted?
Eddie (12:10:03 AM): wait what?
Eddie (12:10:18 AM): no I was going to vote out Alex
Buffy Zanzibar (12:10:22 AM): you said you voted alex
Eddie (12:10:26 AM): and then I found out he had the votes to stay with or without me
Eddie (12:10:27 AM): so I flipped
Eddie (12:10:31 AM): I don't need problems with Alex
Buffy Zanzibar (12:10:42 AM): so why do you think roddy kept him?
Eddie (12:10:50 AM): they probably made a deal
Buffy Zanzibar (12:10:51 AM): and lydia
Eddie (12:10:52 AM): what else could it be?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:11:05 AM): lydia said she had roddy for sure voting alex
Eddie (12:11:05 AM): I know why Jason did it
Buffy Zanzibar (12:11:07 AM): but that was a lie
Eddie (12:11:08 AM): it was really dumb
Eddie (12:11:23 AM): Jason did it so his picture can be next to Sheila's...he wanted to lose to Alex/Josh
Buffy Zanzibar (12:11:40 AM): omg
Buffy Zanzibar (12:11:48 AM): Jason
Buffy Zanzibar (12:12:03 AM): you are saying he wanted to go?
Eddie (12:12:21 AM): Jason knew he was screwed
Buffy Zanzibar (12:12:25 AM): yeah he was
Eddie (12:12:26 AM): but I think he thought Josh was safe
Buffy Zanzibar (12:12:33 AM): lol i thought so too
Eddie (12:16:18 AM): yeah got kicked off
Eddie (12:16:24 AM): in the weirdest way
Eddie (12:16:27 AM): I'm on Express
Buffy Zanzibar (12:16:33 AM): oh
Buffy Zanzibar (12:16:35 AM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (12:16:41 AM): okay well it's after midnight
Buffy Zanzibar (12:16:45 AM): i really need to get to bed
Eddie (12:16:49 AM): but yeah what happened with the vote is that Roddy knew about Jason who was pretty public about his vote
Eddie (12:16:52 AM): and he knew about Renny
Eddie (12:16:58 AM): and decided that he can call the shots
Buffy Zanzibar (12:17:07 AM): okay...
Buffy Zanzibar (12:17:10 AM): what does that mean?
Eddie (12:17:22 AM): idk Roddy probably made a deal with Renny
Eddie (12:17:26 AM): not Renny
Eddie (12:17:27 AM): Ale
Eddie (12:17:28 AM): x
Buffy Zanzibar (12:17:34 AM): what about lydia?
Eddie (12:17:36 AM): and...Alex won't put him up? I guess?
Eddie (12:17:42 AM): maybe Lydia was included in that deal
Buffy Zanzibar (12:17:52 AM): ah well
Buffy Zanzibar (12:17:56 AM): stupid deal imo
Buffy Zanzibar (12:18:03 AM): why not take out a threat whenyou can
Buffy Zanzibar (12:18:10 AM): unless it was a f3 or something i guess
Buffy Zanzibar (12:18:12 AM): w/e
Buffy Zanzibar (12:18:26 AM): like alex is going to honor that
Buffy Zanzibar (12:18:32 AM): when he has nathan and renny
Eddie (12:18:33 AM): yeah seriously
Eddie (12:18:44 AM): if I wasn't already putting up Nathan and Renny I'd think of going after him
Eddie (12:18:54 AM): I just got enough enemies who are obviously enemies
Eddie (12:18:59 AM): to make an enemy of him
Buffy Zanzibar (12:19:11 AM): honestly
Buffy Zanzibar (12:19:13 AM): I love Kyle
Buffy Zanzibar (12:19:17 AM): outside of this game lol
Buffy Zanzibar (12:19:41 AM): but i chose him to put up because he's a threat and he wasn't talking game to me
Eddie (12:19:49 AM): I like James (Sheila) too, but he just had to go...like why throw away my game for that
Buffy Zanzibar (12:19:51 AM): and plus
Buffy Zanzibar (12:20:00 AM): they were from little house
Eddie (12:20:06 AM): exactly
Buffy Zanzibar (12:20:07 AM): oh james
Buffy Zanzibar (12:20:13 AM): i was rejoicing when he left
Eddie (12:20:19 AM): me too
Eddie (12:20:25 AM): I thought it'd be like an olympic event to get him out
Buffy Zanzibar (12:20:36 AM): his head wasn't that into this game
Buffy Zanzibar (12:20:43 AM): he made f2 in mgas2
Buffy Zanzibar (12:20:49 AM): that's where his head was
Eddie (12:21:01 AM): yeah
Eddie (12:21:04 AM): well good thing
Eddie (12:21:07 AM): now we can win
Buffy Zanzibar (12:21:26 AM): www.zshare.net/audio/73250557a2dcb6fb/
Eddie (12:22:04 AM): haha who is that?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:22:09 AM): James
Buffy Zanzibar (12:22:09 AM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (12:22:23 AM): part of my f2 question was to Yak - the other person in f2
Buffy Zanzibar (12:22:28 AM): to make a voice recording
Buffy Zanzibar (12:22:31 AM): because he's british
Buffy Zanzibar (12:22:32 AM): lol
Eddie (12:22:32 AM): wow somehow I would never guess James has that voice
Buffy Zanzibar (12:22:36 AM): i know
Buffy Zanzibar (12:22:37 AM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (12:22:49 AM): he was crying because he didnt' get to do a vid or voice recording
Buffy Zanzibar (12:22:57 AM): so i told him he coudl if he had a british accent
Eddie (12:23:04 AM): LOL
Eddie (12:23:08 AM): awesome
Eddie (12:23:15 AM): why didn't he do Renny's challenge then
Eddie (12:23:19 AM): *shakes head*
Buffy Zanzibar (12:23:32 AM): oh that was sheila
Buffy Zanzibar (12:23:34 AM): and alex
Buffy Zanzibar (12:23:35 AM): not james
Eddie (12:23:52 AM): but Sheila's real name is James
Eddie (12:24:00 AM): ohhh you mean our James
Eddie (12:24:02 AM): tlg?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:24:04 AM): yes
Buffy Zanzibar (12:24:10 AM): who did you think i meant?
Eddie (12:24:14 AM): Sheila
Eddie (12:24:16 AM): Jamison
Buffy Zanzibar (12:24:17 AM): ohhh
Buffy Zanzibar (12:24:18 AM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (12:24:19 AM): no
Buffy Zanzibar (12:24:21 AM): no no no
Buffy Zanzibar (12:24:28 AM): i've never heard him
Eddie (12:24:29 AM): yeah I know tlg had more potential
Eddie (12:24:51 AM): but being weak was part of his strategy I think
Eddie (12:24:57 AM): so he didn't feel like he was throwing it
Buffy Zanzibar (12:24:57 AM): exactly
Eddie (12:25:37 AM): so what safe did you really go into?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:26:03 AM): 2
Buffy Zanzibar (12:26:04 AM): lol
Eddie (12:26:15 AM): do you have the power?
Buffy Zanzibar (12:26:31 AM): not yet... it's pretty hard actually
Buffy Zanzibar (12:26:32 AM): do you?
Eddie (12:26:35 AM): no
Eddie (12:26:42 AM): its hard
Buffy Zanzibar (12:26:55 AM): well i got stuck
Buffy Zanzibar (12:27:00 AM): and i haven't had time
Buffy Zanzibar (12:27:06 AM): hoh and all
Buffy Zanzibar (12:27:09 AM): that was a waste
Eddie (12:27:13 AM): we'll help each other tomorrow or something
Buffy Zanzibar (12:27:17 AM): i shouldn't have bothered
Buffy Zanzibar (12:27:20 AM): ok
Buffy Zanzibar (12:27:25 AM): i really have to go to bed though
Buffy Zanzibar (12:27:32 AM): i'm so tired
Eddie (12:27:32 AM): I know I kept you up too much
Eddie (12:27:36 AM): sorry!
Buffy Zanzibar (12:27:37 AM): and i have to get up early
Eddie (12:27:44 AM): ahhh feel bad...
Buffy Zanzibar (12:27:50 AM): np i'll just blame you when i fall asleep at my desk
Eddie (12:28:00 AM): your boss can vote to evict me
Eddie (12:28:03 AM): goodnight!!
Buffy Zanzibar (12:28:03 AM): lol
Buffy Zanzibar (12:28:04 AM): ok
Buffy Zanzibar (12:28:11 AM): i'll ttyl
Buffy Zanzibar (12:28:13 AM): have a good night

I apologize for posting this long convo but basically I think it shows that Eddie and I talked things out and trust each other a little more now. (Plus, I will probably take some unnecessary crap out when I have time.) I couldn't really open up to him because, first of all I have Will to protect, then Renny. I also did not want Renny getting wind that I had told Eddie anything important since she still had the coup. I knew Eddie's HOH was basically fucked this week but I couldn't warn him. I just had to let things play out the way they did and I figured if and when I was in a position to talk to Eddie a bit more and gain more trust I would. I definitely do NOT want him to leave this house anytime soon, though. I think by giving him more of my trust he will keep me low on his bootlist and go after the people who are threats to his game. That's definitely not me. I just need to keep my relationship with Eddie quiet and private. He's my backup in case I need that. If he can get Nathan out of this game that's extremely valuable to me. I need to play this very carefully.

So, the week ended with Renny using his coup. At first I was happy he did so that it's out there and I don't have to worry about him using it if we get a chance to take out Nathan. I am kind of nervous about it now, though, since it means Roddy or Lydia could win HOH this week and they could screw up my game. I am seriously considering taking Roddy hostage before the HOH with my POW power. Since it's set up tournament style, I will wait to see the lineup first. If I can take him out, then Lydia is also taken out, I would have two chances to win HOH, as well as having Roddy's vote in case Lydia does win and puts me up. It's going to be a last minute decision, though. Nathan was asking me if I might use it this week. I said maybe. I am sure he wants me to use it on Eddie, since that's what I said I would do after that HOH was over - when I was upset with Eddie. I'm not wasting it like that, though. I promised Nathan I wouldn't use it on him and I won't. I'm not using it on someone that is not an immediate threat to my game, though.