Episode 4 - Rot in hell Amber

[Roddy Mancuso]

Amber

FUCK AMBER! I FUCKING HATE THAT BITCH! I HAVE NEVER EVEN SPOKEN TO HER BUT I KNOW THAT SHE HAS NO IDEA WHAT THE FUCK SHE IS TALKING ABOUT AND THAT SHE IS EVEN WORSE AS A JUDGE THAN THE HYPOTHETICAL SPAWN OF TYRA FROM ANTM AND WHOEVER THE FUCK DECLARED OJ SIMPSON INNOCENT.

A 3 on skill? REALLY? What the hell kind of judging is that... she CLEARLY just wanted the Hitler one to win, because the other judges preferred mine more than big She's and Amber's voting categories made NO sense. I think that Amber had an idea that mine would score well, and marked it lower in the hopes that the Hitler one would win. Because seriously there is no fucking way she actually thought mine was a 3 on skill. If I ever meet this bitch in real life...

HOH

So I bet that from reading that previous paragraph you can tell how I felt about HoH...

Well, to be honest I am just SOOOOO frustrated (cue Dani BB8). This game is just not working out the way I want it to. First of all, I lose Dave in a completely unpredictable way (granted, he might have left anyways). But as I am recoviering from that, I basically dominate a challenge but am robbed by one of the judges. FUCK MY LIFE.

Whatever. I never expected this to be easy, and I am still here in episode 4 so that's a good thing. Gotta keep on trucking, I guess.

[Roddy Mancuso]

Nominations

So after Sheila wins a completely undeserved HoH, the bitch decides that she is gonna nominate me. I would understand if she had just said, we don't talk, but her speech was weird and cryptic. When I talked to her about it, her reasoning is that she thought I was holding out on Jason about the deal we made when he saved me. She tried to tell me that Renny got a clue to the basement when she was saved, and that Renny told Nathan who told her. Yeah, right...

Anyways I asked Nathan and that was clearly not the case. I made a point to mention that She was throwing his name around. I want Nathan to see me as a potential asset in this game. I cannot read him well, but I know that he is gonna play very rationally, not personally. So I need to show him through my actions why he should keep me.

Anyways I obviously had to say something, so I responded to the nomination thread. Her speech made me look sketchy so I had to clarify. And really, I am not in posession of a clue so it is not worth talking about.

Veto

OMG I have second place curse this week </3. But I am decently happy with my performance in the challenge. I was thrilled when Lydia won veto. She is my main girl and I am her main man and we know that 100%. So her winning was huge for me. Once again my connections on the other side of the house pull through .

Unfortunately, it is looking like Jun will also use the veto. That means Eddie will probably end up on the block. That blows, but I think we might be able to keep him. I guess it all depends on Nathan though. He has a lot of power this week with what he won in the veto. Jason seems to believe that Nathan is fully invested in going through with getting rid of Seb, but I am definitely not sure what to think. I will endorse getting rid of Seb in a heartbeat though if he expresses any interest (obviously not being blatant, but in a smoothe way).

I like Natalie, but I know that I will never have her allegiance in a way that I have Eddie's. I NEED Eddie to stay this round.

[Roddy Mancuso]

Leaving Episode 4

So I am actually gonna be sad to see Nat go. I think she was pretty much being legitimate with me for most of the time we were here. I really appreciated that he was sincere with me and if he was up against almost any other sinner I would want to have kept him. Losing Eddie would be much worse though.

I honestly feel like this game is about to intensify a lot. There have been 4 evicted so far, meaning we have hit a quarter mark through the game. That makes everyone increase their suspicion of one another.

There are definitely sides forming, but they are not big sides. Right now the small cores are being solidified, I think. I swear, keeping track of the relationships in the game is like trying to chart a fucking cobweb. Lyd and I are still the new kid on the block, but all of the sudden people are starting to realize that they could use an extra vote or two as tensions start to emerge with all the pregame relationships.

I feel like I am starting to connect more with these people on a personal level, except for Big She. I really just don't know what to say to her. She is not interesting, funny or pleasant to talk to ... what she is, is self righteous. And she nominated me so why the fuck would I wanna talk to her?

God I want this HoH.